The End/Beginning is well in sight! - Page 2

[c'est moi]

Trying to keep my spirits up. On Saturday I was in a really bad spot, but was able to rally. Whatever I did isstarting to wane though and I need a new rallying cry though. I feel like I've paid my dues now and 8 days over is enough patience. I keep trying to remind myself that another 6 days is also normal.

For whatever reason, I'm feeling anxious about the health of the baby. I don't think it's intuition though. Just straight up fear related to other people's birth stories. Kind of like first tri when you worry about miscarriage. Now I find myself worrying over stillbirth. I just want this baby safe in my arms now.

If my dd is well enough, I should have the house to myself today. Hopefully I can pull it together for another several days. Next ob check is tomorrow. That should help. Love going and he's always so reassuring.

[jenniro]

Nice about the OB.  You can totally do this!  This is the homestretch, almost there!

[JFTB1177]

Originally Posted by c'est moi 

For whatever reason, I'm feeling anxious about the health of the baby. I don't think it's intuition though. Just straight up fear related to other people's birth stories. Kind of like first tri when you worry about miscarriage. Now I find myself worrying over stillbirth. I just want this baby safe in my arms now.

 

I feel exactly the same! I am 41+3 today and even though DS2 came at 42+5 last time I still feel VERY anxious! I find myself reading scary stories and worrying all the time. Here's to hoping we both have these babies SOON! :) HUGS!

[jenniro]

Bump for updates

[c'est moi]

thanks for checking in on me :)

still pregnant. oh well.

had my OB appt today. i still can't believe how amazing he is. he's just so laid back about everything. when it was time for the GD test in early third tri, he asked me if i wanted to do it rather than told me i would. i've only had to pee in a cup once this entire pregnancy and that was related to my GBS test. i know many women that have delivered at 43 weeks with him. he never considered changing my due date even though my 22-week US was 5 days sooner than another date in my chart. he's not even close to pushing for an induction. he's totally fine waiting it out as long as both mom and baby are healthy. i just can't believe him!

anyhow, that means that really it's just a waiting game at this point. the only pressure to get the baby out is from ME and me alone. otherwise, everyone else is happy to wait. my next appt will be at 42w1d. i hope i don't make it that far!

[neveraim]

[LisaSedai]

Sending you good thoughts

[c'est moi]

Ladies, you've been great! I had my baby yesterday morning via c-section. A little GIRL!!!! 9 lbs 14 oz. 21 inches long. big ol' head, broad shoulders. huge cheeks. she looks like a sumo wrestler :)

I went spontaneously into labor on Friday night 41w2d. Went to the hospital in the wee hours of the morning on Saturday. Labored for 37 hours, including 3 hours of pushing. Now as strange as this may seem considering that it's a VBAC forum, I still feel healed and validated by this birth. I mean this sincerely. Sometimes we can influence and take charge of our birth experiences, but sometimes babies (not doctors, not doulas, and not mothers) decide on the best way to come out. And no, this is not just the justifications of a "failed VBAC" mama (silly term by the way). In my heart of hearts, I don't regret this birth experience.

[Monkey Keeper]

Congratulations on your (not so) little gal's arrival, c'est moi!  You are right--you did not fail.  You simply followed your babe's chosen path into the world.  Three hours of pushing is no joke! May you recover quickly.  Enjoy those itty bitty baby snuggles! :love

[c'est moi]

Thanks so much for your support PB. I want to add that despite the fact that this is a hospital birth and I only pushed for 3 hours, I don't want people to think that I was given a cutoff time for pushing, which is not uncommon. They would have let me push for 6 hours or more if I wanted to. It really was just one of those things

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Originally Posted by PinkBunch 

Three hours of pushing is no joke! 

[First Time Mama]

 I am so glad that you are content with your birth experience and feel healed. I think that is the most important thing, wheather it ends in a VBAC or a CBAC.  Enjoy your new baby girl! Congrats!

[JFTB1177]

Originally Posted by c'est moi 

Ladies, you've been great! I had my baby yesterday morning via c-section. A little GIRL!!!! 9 lbs 14 oz. 21 inches long. big ol' head, broad shoulders. huge cheeks. she looks like a sumo wrestler :)

I went spontaneously into labor on Friday night 41w2d. Went to the hospital in the wee hours of the morning on Saturday. Labored for 37 hours, including 3 hours of pushing. Now as strange as this may seem considering that it's a VBAC forum, I still feel healed and validated by this birth. I mean this sincerely. Sometimes we can influence and take charge of our birth experiences, but sometimes babies (not doctors, not doulas, and not mothers) decide on the best way to come out. And no, this is not just the justifications of a "failed VBAC" mama (silly term by the way). In my heart of hearts, I don't regret this birth experience.

A BIG congrats on your new baby girl!!!!!! :) :) This was actually really great to read, considering I could very well end up with a c/s this time... it brings me a lot of hope that if that happens I can still walk away happy and okay. :) I hate that term "failed", you didn't fail anything.

Congrats again!!!! Enjoy your little one!!

 

[Simonsez2u]

Congratulations and welcome to your little one.  Your baby came into the world the way that she was meant to.  I'm so glad you got the opportunity and are at peace with your experience.  Enjoy your babymoon with your little sumo wrestler.

[rumi79]

Oh congratulations on your "little" one! Good job and I wish you fast recovery!

I know how you feel because I went through the same thing - "failed" HBAC and a repeat c-section. And even though I was disappointed in the first days from my body, I feel good about myself and the birth experience now, a month later.

And you're absolutely right - sometimes we don't have much control over how things happen and our children decide on their own how to enter this world.

I am really happy that your girl is finally in your arms!

[c'est moi]

I've done some more thinking since my initial post and on the whole, I still feel the same.

I find that I am a little "sad," but it's not regret sad or bitter sad. I still respect and trust all the choices and suggestions that were made to me by my doctor (and the doctor that replaced him half way through), by my nurses, my doula, and my husband. I may have changed some choices, but I do not believe they would have changed the outcome of this birth.

What I'm sad about is the loss of the opportunity to lose this vaginal birth. I can never have that again and it's kind of a bummer. I know that long births happen, but there also those fast and furious birthers. I envy them. My body may not be broken, but neither is theirs. I am happy for them, but sad that I can't birth like them. And although I do believe in my body, I am quite confident that I will plan for a RCS if we have a third biological child. There's lots of factors going into that decision (mostly around the way my body tolerates c-sections after long labors and the drugs involved), but i just don't think a VBA2C is in the cards for me. Therefore, vaginal birth is something I will never experience and I am...sad.

Originally Posted by c'est moi 

Sometimes we can influence and take charge of our birth experiences, but sometimes babies (not doctors, not doulas, and not mothers) decide on the best way to come out. And no, this is not just the justifications of a "failed VBAC" mama (silly term by the way). In my heart of hearts, I don't regret this birth experience.

[LisaSedai]

Congrats! My babe girl was 9lbs 14 oz also ( Couldn't fit any newborn size outfits!.)  I'm sorry that you didn't get the birth you hoped for but glad you are at peace with it. Sending you heal up fast wishes.