I was feeling ready to be done until about lastnite I suddenly started having major anxiety about the baby coming home. Mostly just about not feeling 100% confident that I know what the hell I am doing or maybe just that now I am totally realizing that her life literally depends on me. It's been an overwhelming 12 hours and everything has been setting me into a ball of tears. My poor husband...I made him breakfast and he made some totally normal comment that he normally would and I just started crying, and then he asked why I was wearing his socks today, even though I am pretty sure they are mine, and I started crying all over again. HE is so ready for me to be done, poor guy. At least he's really understanding.
Lastnite I also decided that I should probably change which bag I use for a hospital bag since the one I have packed now is more like a beach bag and doesn't close on top, but I am feeling like I can't even bring myself to do that. I feel like as soon as I pack that other bag I will go immediately into labor. I don't know if its my good intuition or an irrational fear.
I even lost more plug this morning and I wasn't even excited. Hopefully I will feel like less of a basket case tomorrow or at least by my appt on Wed.