I just emailed my lawyer that I quit. The judge was supposed to hear motions yesterday on my request to move for job training & for the STBX to pay half the taxes on this house. She delayed it a month so I have to pull $1000 out of my butt by Monday & I haven't been able to find a job since July.
I just said he can have the kids,the house. I have to be able to work and there aren't any jobs around here and I was committed to homeschooling anyway. I feel kicked in the teeth.
I think giving up my kids is the worst thing for them. How will they feel thinking their mother abandoned them - how would I ever explain I felt I had no other option? That I am drowning financially, which is exactly what HE wants. But I feel like I can't go on, and I just want this over with - for me financially and for the kids emotionally.