I totally understand how you feel and I think I have you beat. I almost posted a thread myself when this happened because I was so traumatized- the other day, I was in the bathtub with my 5 week old. He doesn't like bathtubs in his Puj Tub in the sink so much, but he loves to get in a fairly shallow, warm tub with me and lets me hold him on his back and swish him around in the water.
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Well, I had him lying on his back on my thighs and I went to change positions, removing my one hand from his head at the same time that he threw his head back a little...and what happens? His head fully submerged under water for a split-second. Enough to get a good nose full (or mouth full?) of water. Well, of course he turned red, started sputtering and coughing as anyone would do, and I totally flipped and thought he was going to die right there in my arms. I started patting him heavily on the back and panicked because I thought I would need to give him CPR or something.
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Ultimately, he was fine, thank GOD, and was just upset, but I was completely shaken and I'm still beating myself up about it. Who lets their tiny 5 week-old baby's head go under water for a second? 5 weeks-old is incredibly small. I'm supposed to be protecting him and making him happy and feel safe. I couldn't even bring myself to tell my husband.
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My point is, it can happen to the best of us, and thank goodness your baby is fine! I'm still upset about the incident in the tub and I can't believe I let it happen, but I'm just so thankful my sweet baby is OK.