Hey, Goldberry! Welcome/welcome back! I remember you as Salvia from other threads, though I don't think I was active on this one when you were. Congratulations on Phoebe!
Clay - that is a tough choice. I would hate the drive, too. And you are going to be having a baby and will have to cut yourself some slack - you just aren't going to be able to make it every day. My pendulum/gut says "pay for the preschool" though. Getting out of the house is going to be important to you - to all of you. Is there anything you can find to do regularly with Tor and babe so you can stay in town during preschool hours at least some days rather than commuting back and forth?
It is so not ideal but I'd probably pay the cc and then withdraw the $ if necessary again in Sept for the school fees. Does the interest savings for a few months make this worth doing at all?
I'm sorry that the job ended, but not sorry that you won't be stretched so thin anymore. You need some of your energy for *you*, mama. Hugs!
re: prayer - teaching children a prayer practice is important to me because (long story short) there were times when I was a child that I felt very afraid for physical and/or spiritual reasons, and prayer helped, even when there was no one to turn to. I hope my children are never in that kind of place, but if they are, I hope they will have prayer/meditation as tools to prevent despair/panic. (DId I share how my dentist-anxious middle child sat in lotus in the dentist's waiting room and Om'd for 10 minutes to reduce his anticipated pain? It made it easier for him and was his idea!)
I think that if I had come to Paganism before having my first child, I would have tried to write/develop my own prayers and meditations. Since I did not, I am pleased that they/we have the resource of very old prayers that have comforted so many millions/maybe even billions of people over history. I love the idea of adding new words to old rhythms.
Valerie, I've read McGowan's book The Source of Miracles. It is lovely - made me want to visit Chartres, or build my own labyrinth, changed the way I think about the Lord's Prayer. I really recommend it highly - and thank you for recommending McGowan in the first place.
(going to post and edit at this point, tired of losing posts :))
re: prayer beads
I started doing necklaces in each color of the chakra/in chakra stones over a year ago and have returned to the project lately.
My first was a heart chakra rose quartz necklace that I call my "patience" necklace. I just restrung my solar plexus "abundance" necklace and my sacral chakra "trust" necklace. The "trust" one makes me really happy right now - connects to my TM. I restrung it to add some lovely chunky carnelian stones that give it a satisfying weight. I may edit to add pics...
I have a bunch of white/clear quartz, amethyst, and flourite beads that I want to make into a crown chakra necklace. One problem I've had is finding wire strong enough to carry heavy/stone beads that doesn't fray and discolor the beads - that was a real problem with the rose quartz and I had to take the strand apart and clean the beads. I don't want discolored white/clear quartz! I've been using nylon-wrapped steel. I am a beading newbie - what would you all recommend?
When I first tried using my dh's rosary, I had no idea what prayers to say. I sat in meditation and said a different prayer/petition/thought for each bead. And it worked - I made a very powerful spiritual conection to the Goddess usually known in my world as Mary. I love the idea of the Pagan Prayer Beads book and the Pagan Lending Library. I'm in - more later!