My son is 3, will be 4 in april, and I am already panicking about homeschooling! I know in my heart its what I want to do, but I am a worrier by nature. I don't really know WHY i'm worrying, I just have a general feeling of unease. I think it could be because I received a letter from the LA last week, saying that the final date for putting my childs name down for a school place was approaching (the date has now passed, and I haven't put his name down of course because I do intend to keep him home) I think its made it a lot more real now!
I know I don't want him to go to school, so i'm not regretting not getting him a place, but its just that now its official, I feel under pressure, from myself mainly!
I am driving myself mad worrying about it all: 'Am I doing enough?' 'Is this the best thing for him?' 'What if I'm not good enough?' etc etc etc, just constantly doubting myself and my abilities to do this for him.
He is doing really well though, he is polite, friendly to both adults and children. Learning every day. Yet still, I am worrying!
I think mainly, I worry that I don't spend enough one to one time with him, I mean he is with me all the time, but of course I'm also doing chores, cooking, taking care of the pets etc. just the usual stuff we all have to do. Yet for some reason, I can't seem to shake the idea of sitting with him for hours at a time (which I know in my head, is not really the best thing for him anyway, especially at the tender age of 3!)
I do read to him every day, we do a craft most days, he has play dates, he goes to story time! Looking at it written down, it looks fine! But why do I still feel guilty, like i'm not doing enough with him? Especially if say, I'm feeling unwell (I have just gotten over the flu) tired, not particularly energetic, those days I feel really guilty! Like i'm being lazy. But we still DO lots together, am I just being hard on myself?
I just am having a major confidence crisis at the moment.
Anyone know where i'm coming from? And maybe if anyone who also little ones this age, how do you feel you are doing with regards to day to day stuff?