I am so upset right now that I don't know what to do. Less than a week ago I found out we would actually be able to afford a home birth, and I was so happy. Now I'm panicking that it won't happen, and I'm really mad at myself for it. With ds, my bp going into the pregnancy was great, totally normal. I had 2 high readings later on in the pregnancy (directly after 2 very stressful events) and trace amounts of protein toward the end, but he was born before anyone pushed induction. After the post-partum time, I never really had occasion to check my bp (I'm terrible about getting regular checkups). Well, just out of curiosity, I stopped at the bp machine at the grocery store this evening to check it, and it was like 148/89!! I was horrified, but I was hoping that maybe since it felt really tight on me that it was just inaccurate. Well, I did a little reading and it turns out that if the cuff is too small, it's actually likely to give a LOWER reading than is accurate. I'm so mad at myself because I have totally not been taking care of myself (before getting pregnant anyway), and I gained back weight that I'd lost when bf'ing (got too used to burning the extra calories by merely sitting on my butt).
Anyway, I know it's probably silly to get so worked up over one grocery store bp reading, but I'm feeling pretty sure that I'm going to be risked out of a homebirth, and maybe legitimately, which is even more upsetting. I guess because it's my fault? I don't know. I'm feeling really bummed though.
Wondering if anyone has any reassurance that it might have been a fluke, or experience with getting bp lowered in a relatively short amount of time? Since it's so early in the pg, I don't think it would be PIH. We're planning to rejoin the Y as soon as we get the money, and I know exercise is like the most important thing. I'm thinking that if I put off the consultation with the mw, maybe I'll have a chance to get it down to a reasonable level? I'm going to be heartbroken if I have to end up with an ob birth, and the scariness of dealing with pre-e treatment (ie delivering asap) is overwhelming to me.
Tell me I'm getting ahead of myself!