With all the court battles and horrific custody issues, I have never verbalized this.
But sometimes I really wish my ex was in a place that he could take the kids more often.
I'd even be willing to do a 50/50 split. Okay, maybe not that much - but this EOWeekend thing sucks.
If he was happy, healthy, responsible, had a good network in place... I'd probably even ask him.
But he's not. And so I have no life, no time, way too much kid stress, and no way out.
I work shift work, as a trauma RN, and it's friggin' draining. My stupid schedule usually has me working at least one day most weekends (or nights) and my downtime (kid free) is pretty narrow.
I miss my life. That's all. I love my kids more than anything, but my god I wish I wasn't solely responsible for them.