I found out a few weeks ago that I'm pregnant again. It was quite a surprise! After the birth of my son, I decided that was it for me- no more kids. I really didn't want to go through that again. He was born by c-section after a very long, very difficult labor (failure to descend).
When I was pregnant with him, I had a very vivid dream. I was strapped down to a hospital bed, hooked up to IVs. They took my baby away, and I was left all alone. That's not at all what I was planning on, but the funny thing is- that's exactly what happened.
I had another dream about birth about a week ago. I was waiting on the midwife to get to my house, standing up in my living room with my husband, and I felt an incredible pressure to push, and my baby slid right out, as the midwife was walking up to the front door. I can only hope that this dream comes true, too!
I keep going back and forth between really looking forward to this birth and being terrified that the same thing will happen again. I have some serious cervical damage from the c-section, and I'm afraid that it won't cooperate.
Any thoughts or suggestions on preparing for a successful VBAC? I'm 9 weeks today.