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Lavatea, our dd was a very faint line 13 dpo. I think the problem here is not a faint line, it is the fact that you kept testing, IYKWIM. Most people would stop at that point, so there is not so much talk about what happens or does not happen to faint lines.

 

I am having the first cycle for a looong time where I have no signs of ovulation approaching by cd 16. Well, I had them right after af, but doubt I actually ovulated. I am blaming this on too much progesterone last cycle. Yet, I am only using cream, so I am not sure it should be able to cause this. (It is so often mentioned how the creams are so weak...) Whatever. I am actually kind of enjoying this limbo. I am tired of ttc and looking for what to do, what is the "plan" in my life (not mine) when it comes to kids.

 

Dd (soon 6) and I were in a store yesterday. All of a sudden she started crying and said she she has been praying for 3 years (true) and there is still no baby. She said it hurts her to see all the little outfits and that she no longer likes seeing a friend's baby. (I had wondered what had happened, because she liked loving on that baby not so long ago, and did not want to have much to do with her last time.) This was sad and interesting, as I have been calmer about things, lately. I do know that it is hard on dd that her younger friends keep getting more siblings. (One pregnancy we found out about just last week.) It was hard to know what to say... Dh and I can be thankful that we at least have dd. She, however, cannot not, you know. We at least have one child, but she has 0 siblings. Interestingly, I think in her own way dd goes through the same things I do: She loves babies and would love to have one to cuddle. She cannot understand why others are given so many kids, even if they don't look after tham very well. I have always known she was hoping for a baby, but had not realized how many emotions she has about it. 

 

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LTB - You're right, I should probably just stop testing altogether. If AF shows, no amount of testing is going to keep her away.

Your poor DD. How heartbreaking. My DD talks about a new baby a lot (she also talks about dead babies), but at least she has DS to play with. I can't imagine her being an only child. Not that it would make the ache go away, but could you get her a special pet? Someone furry she could take care of and hug on. Maybe that would take the sting out a bit?
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AFM - Doing fantastic, hanging out in my 6th week.  Had my second ultrasound on tuesday, with a HR of 119, and everything measuring perfectly.  Statistical miscarriage rate is down to something like 7%.  I've never been this pregnant with a healthy seeming babe before - always been something "wrong" already. 

I am happily doing the "recurrent miscarriage" protocol as suggested by the RE.  I have weekly ultrasounds (miscarriage goes down in habitual miscarriers with weekly ultrasound, which is whack and has no known mechanism for action) and I'm on progesterone suppositories (also no known mechanism of action, but also reduce miscarriage rate, so I'm doing that too).  I declined the acupuncture. 

 

 

For my BSLs - I'm putting together care packages for you in the next couple of weeks.  Pregnancy Tests, Ovulation Sticks, Progesterone, etc.  It's all gotta go!



Jane - What do you mean that miscarriages go down if you have a weekly u/s? I didn't know that. I have read over in the pregnancy forums that some people think that u/s's increase miscarriage rates. Of course, here I am getting u/s's like every day because of IVF, but I really been worried about all of the u/s enough to look into it. There is nothing I can really do about my frequent u/s's, because they are pretty much required for IVF.

 

I am glad to hear that you have a heartbeat (um not you, the baby). That would make me feel so much better.



LTB - that story about your DD made me really sad. I am sorry. :hug

 

Lavatea: I say it, but I don't agree that it is getting lighter. They both look about the same to me. I still have my fingers crossed for you.

 

I have some femera that I didn't use because my cycle was canceled. Is anybody on femera and want some?

 

AFM - I have six eggies. I hope there are a few more, and I hope that they are all good quality and make it. Retrieval is tomorrow morning at 9:30, so please send good thoughts my way. I am really nervous. I gave myself a shot in the butt (hcg) last night. It still hurts.

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rcr - Lots of prayers for you today. smile.gif A bunch of us need to get out of here!
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Thanks Lava. I am not a fan of DDCs at the moment, so maybe if we all leave together it will be more tolerable. I hope we can leave together. love.gif

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drive by posting: Just updating... I posted yesterday about how my chart was so weird and maybe even anovulatory, but I hadn't recorded some of my temps because I thought some of the low ones weren't post-O.  Well today I put those in and FF gave me an O day after all.  My lowest coverline ever, latest O, and my temp was a freakishly low 97.2 the day after O (normally a temp I'd see pre-O) but that's what I've got.  With my high temp today anovulatory is not at all likely.  So I know yet one more thing about my cycle that doesn't mean I'm pregnant.  Interesting, though.

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I know!  It's weird, isn't it?  I'll pull the reference when I can find it. 

Jane - What do you mean that miscarriages go down if you have a weekly u/s? I didn't know that. I have read over in the pregnancy forums that some people think that u/s's increase miscarriage rates. Of course, here I am getting u/s's like every day because of IVF, but I really been worried about all of the u/s enough to look into it. There is nothing I can really do about my frequent u/s's, because they are pretty much required for IVF.

 

I am glad to hear that you have a heartbeat (um not you, the baby). That would make me feel so much better.

 

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Jane - I would really like to see the reference too. I am absolutely petrified about getting pregnant again (to the point that I am having anxiety attacks because we're about to start TTC again), and I would love to know about anything, anything at all that might increase the odds of me not miscarrying the next one. Glad you are doing well! This is GREAT!

 

Rcr - Good luck tomorrow! I'll be sending good vibes your way all day long.

 

LTB - So sad about your DD. I totally understand. DS has stopped asking about babies as often, but now draws pictures of dead babies in their Mommie's tummys. Heartbreaking. I feel like I've let him down SO much. He deserves better, and may never get it.

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Jane - I would really like to see the reference too. I am absolutely petrified about getting pregnant again (to the point that I am having anxiety attacks because we're about to start TTC again), and I would love to know about anything, anything at all that might increase the odds of me not miscarrying the next one. Glad you are doing well! This is GREAT!

 

Collieflower and others with miscarriages.... Maybe you have done this already, but please do look into the immune stuff. If there are 3 miscarriages without cromosome issues, some doctors feel immune problems are very likely (like 70-80%, if I remember correctly). BUT, I know very little about miscarrieages, so don't believe me on that without research. Interestingly, some of the women with immune problems have developed those due to a first pregnancy. This is why it is possible that is my issue. However, I also read something here today that sounded like me: insulin trouble (or so it feels, not confirmed) and weight is "heavy normal." I think something like insulin and blood sugar problems could also be my problem. In that case losing weight could be the solution, except that I am not able to lose more than 5 lbs without gaining the rest right back.

 

I have so desperately wanted to ger pregnant, but these days my mind really plays tricks on me. I just want to adopt and even that has changed: I used to think as young as possible, but now I think a toddler would be just fine, even great. My thoughts and emotions change so much that I feel very strange.

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LTB - Thanks for the suggestions. I have actually had all of the immunological testing and the testing for insulin sensitivity. I've even been tested for gluten sensitivity and about a gazillion other things. Everything comes back normal. Argh. I am now focusing on gaining weight (I am a bit on the thin side, but have a normal BMI) and de-stressing.  BTW - All my siblings are adopted, and two were actually older (3 and 6) when they were adopted. Happy to talk on the side about it, if you are interested.

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collieflower.... Just wondering if you have had also the immune testing done that is done only in 4 labs in the USA, nowhere else in the world. Oh, and the insulin thing is all me. I was not trying to suggest that anyone else here have it. Just fits me perfectly.

 

When it comes to adoption, it is the darn money thing that is a big issue... and time. I never thought I would feel old, all of a sudden, at 34.

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Another drive by posting redface.gif

Lavatea, I think those lines are fine for being so early. I know it's hard not to worry though hug.gif

LTB, that beaks my heart about your DD greensad.gif

I just wanted to update about my coworker, she is telling people that she was pregnant, and even though she never got a BFP, she miscarried lol.gif
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Argh. I am now focusing on gaining weight (I am a bit on the thin side, but have a normal BMI) and de-stressing.

Is being thin a bad thing for fertility? Why? I am thin (BMI is right on the border between underweight and normal), but I do not diet to be thinner than I should be, this is just the size my body wants to be. I have hovered within a few pounds of my current weight since around the time I graduated high school. I have tried and failed to gain weight, so I do not think that would work for me. Should I be worried that this is part of my fertility problem?
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I just wanted to update about my coworker, she is telling people that she was pregnant, and even though she never got a BFP, she miscarried lol.gif


JUST, WOW! In other words, she was way too embarrassed to admit that she did not get pregnant the first try and that it was not very smart to talk as if she definitely would.

 

It is often said that both being over weight or under weight can be the problem behind infertility. However, I think they normally talk about having enough fat to also have a period. I am not sure whether it can be a problem when someone is slender by nature and all that. Interesting thought, though. I am not obese and really should not have problems due to weight. Yet, it seems as if it is not impossible.

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LessTraveledBy, I'm sorry you are feeling so old. hug.gif 34 is still young. I'm also sad about my age. I'm only 28 (was 27 when we started TTC), and I ask myself all the time why I'm so infertile when I'm supposed to be young and super fertile. My mother had 3 of her children after the age of 39 (each under 2 years apart), but apparently the fertility gene skipped a generation. greensad.gif

 

I'm reading along and hoping for you all. I just don't feel much like posting lately. I'm on CD16 with no signs of being fertile yet, so not much to say. I could complain about waiting so long each cycle to ovulate, but that's just gotten old. I often find myself breaking down into tears, which I need to swallow quickly so my little boy doesn't have to see his mama crying. I try to search for hope, wherever it is, but it's gotten hard to find any.

 

I guess I'll be all cheerful again once I've ovulated.

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Beloved- 

 

A big hahaha!

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Just thought I'd add to this discussion before crawling back into my hole. winky.gif
 

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Is being thin a bad thing for fertility? Why? I am thin (BMI is right on the border between underweight and normal), but I do not diet to be thinner than I should be, this is just the size my body wants to be. I have hovered within a few pounds of my current weight since around the time I graduated high school. I have tried and failed to gain weight, so I do not think that would work for me. Should I be worried that this is part of my fertility problem?


When I got pregnant with my son, I was on the border between normal and underweight. However, I was ovulating regularly, and my cycles were of a normal length (unlike now).

 

 

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It is often said that both being over weight or under weight can be the problem behind infertility. However, I think they normally talk about having enough fat to also have a period. I am not sure whether it can be a problem when someone is slender by nature and all that. Interesting thought, though. I am not obese and really should not have problems due to weight. Yet, it seems as if it is not impossible.


A personal anecdote to add to this: I did lose quite a bit of weight very quickly once (running). This was long before I had ever charted, but I must not have been ovulating because I didn't have a period for over half a year. With that said, when I got pregnant with my son, I was lighter than I was during this period-free stretch, but I was ovulating nicely. So, I think LessTraveledBy might be right that ovulating is a bigger issue than weight. If weight affects ovulation, then sure, weight is a problem, but not directly so. Just based on my experience.

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Beloved- 

 

A big hahaha!


I know ROTFLMAO.gif I overheard her telling a client that today, I guess they asked. I am sure she will tell me the same thing when we are alone.


I have heard that being too underweight could affect fertility, but if "under" weight is your norm, and you are eating healthy foods, I wouldn't worry too much. Of course, it never hurts to have hormone levels checked (I need to)

My Ayurvedic practitioner is going to work with me on reproductive health and I am seeing him on Monday. Did I say this before? (forgive me if this is a repeat redface.gif ) He wants me to take aloe vera *gel* in juice (one on my list of juices that are good for me to have) I tried it and it is lumpy, and gel-like. The gel doesn't taste bad, but it is such a gross texture. I am going to see if he will let me do the juice. (I hope)

I am at peace at the moment with the idea that I am done. I mean that. I don't know why, but I was really hyped up this month about knowing it was "my" month (I should have known, as long as I've been at this) I am ok though. Now, I need to stay away from this thread, as much as I would miss you guys, it doesn't help me to see old faces leave and nerw ones come in. We are all on the same journey, and I am just unable to stay away from the process for some reason.

rcr, I have a feeling about you this month. GL with the whole process love.gif
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Oh, I want to mention that the aloe is for general balance, not fertility in particular, but I will find out more on Monday.
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Beloved - We'd miss you if you leave, but I totally understand needing to be away from all of the TTC talk. Hahaha, on your co-worker.
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