She'll be 3 in 2 months and I don't like being with her. Even when she's happy and playing I am tensing for a tantrum. I might walk into a room when she wanted to walk in first or I might pick up a raisin that fell on the floor when she wanted to do it. I'm past "I know you're sad/mad/upset but that it is not okay to yell". She is so mercurial now. She is completely unreasonable and I know...she's almost 3. I get it. But is it natural to think..hmm...maybe a divorce would be good as I'd only have to have her half the time or wanted to work full time just to get away from her. I know I sound awful. I love her and my husband and we have a pretty good life aside from a lot of typical stress. I hate saying these things. I told my DH I missed what it was like before her. I hate myself for saying that. I know this is a stage but I am sucked into it and can't get my head above water. I would never hit her but I feel like I'm sounding more firm more often and turning into a total shrew of a mom. I give choices and I validate her feelings and I admit when I'm wrong for getting mad and say I'm sorry. I model feelings of her and how to take my own time and and to breathe....but I'm hitting my limit several times a day now. I think DH feels the same as I do though I don't think he would be so low as to say he missed life before her.
I need help.