The school has diagnosed ds as autism spectrum and spd (sensory seeking). He'll turn 4 next month, I'm an attached parent and plan to homeschool. Sometimes I wonder if he is special needs at all but other times I hope he is so all of his problems aren't just the result of bad parenting. He's not able to do the things other kids his age do, no matter how hard I try. Maybe the school would be able to fix him
I know I'm depressed, I blame winter. I don't have a car and we don't go outside unless its over 20 degrees so we are home nearly all the time. My husband is worthless and I want to call myself a single mother but I know there are true single mothers out there who would tell me I don't know how hard it can be. I don't have help from anywhere else either.
In summer when I had a car we would do projects everyday (arts and crafts, cooking together, nature walks, etc) and have activities to go to 3X a week. Everything was working out. My car broke before winter and my lovely husband says a car for me and the kids is a luxery and I'm being selfish for asking for one. I handle money in the house and we can afford it.
The school has mentioned the offer for preschool is still open. As I look at what are day is like here I know he would be doing much more in school than what I'm able to do with him (no car, depression). ds says he doesn't want to go. I wonder if him going would hurt our relationship which is the main reason I think his autism spectrum and spd isn't worse than it is. I would like to be able to wait until the depression ends in spring to make the decision but I don't want my little boy to wait until then if keeping him home is a bad decision