Really nervous about tomorrow

[jillybeans]

I have my NT scan tomorrow, I'll be 11w5d.  With my last m/c I started spotting at 11w4d (so today) and had my d&c right at 12 weeks.  This week is always really hard for me!

Plus, this pregnancy is SO weird compared to my girls'.  I'm not showing as much as I usually do, and I'm having really odd symptoms.  Usually by now I can feel my fundus easily.  At my m/w appt 3 weeks ago she felt my fundus when my bladder was full, but I can't feel it anymore at all.  I think I'm convinced that we'll get bad news tomorrow!

Dh thinks I'm crazy, but there is just something "off" about this pregnancy and I don't know what it is.  I'm not sure if dd3's pregnancy, with all the stress it included (ending in a preemie + NICU stay), affected me more than I realize or what.

I'm def. not bonded with this baby yet...it's still just a "pregnancy"  which is VERY VERY unusual for me. 

So, keep us in your thoughts tomorrow!  I don't know if I can handle another m/c.

[SoonToBe]

You are (and will be) in my thoughts.  I hope you can sleep tonight and get some relief from a good appointment tomorrow.  Hopefully once you can see everything looks okay and you're so far along, it will make it more real for you.  Hugs!

Bree

[~savah~]

I will be thinking about you. Hopefully after tomorrow you will be able to relax.

[Baby_Cakes]

I felt the same way going into my scan, and I haven't even had any previous losses.  I can't imagine how terrifying it must be for you.  I had such thoughts of gloom going into this scan whereas with DD I was all sunshine and rainbows.  

I wasn't bonded at ALL with this baby until yesterday's scan.  I hope, no -- I know -- it will be the same for you.  Be sure to post pictures of your LO when you get home!! 

[veggiemomto2]

Thinking of you!

[kristenyostdc]

I'll be thinking of you tomorrow!  I'll say a little prayer for you tonight for a good nights sleep and not to be to nervous tomorrow.  And just remember that every pregnancy is different!!  Your symptoms are just different because this is a new pregnancy.  I'm sure that after your scan tomorrow you'll feel much better and will start bonding.  Good luck and let us know how it goes!

[bonadl2]

I'll think about you tomorrow and say a prayer that all goes well.  We'll be waiting for an update!  

[eakelly5]

Good luck! Fingers crossed for some good news :)

[copper.kettle]

Good luck!!  Can't wait to see your happy update tomorrow :)

[MovingMomma]

Oh, momma!  

I know how you feel.  I miscarried my last pregnancy at 11 wks, immediately after an ultrasound where we saw a wiggly baby with a good heart rate and no indications of any problems.  I didn't have an ultrasound this time until 13w 5d, and although I was able to be optimistic and in the moment up until about 10w, from that time until I saw the baby I was very worried.  I felt paranoid about going to the ultrasound, and I didn't really think I would feel better afterwards.  But it did help to see the baby.  This baby doesn't look the same as my lost little one.  And I'm still pregnant & starting to look forward w/a positive energy again!  

Big, big  to you.  Keep breathing.  My thoughts are def. with you and I hope to see a good update tomorrow!

[LadyJennifer]

I had the same "off" feeling in my last pregnancy into my second trimester. I just knew I was going to lose him. I had some light brown spotting at 11 weeks and just knew that was it. It obviously did not mean a thing though, he's a healthy strong 19 month old now:)

Hoping you have a great scan:)

[Baby_Cakes]

Thinking of you Jill!  Keep us posted!!   

[bonadl2]

Jill?? How did it go??  Anxiously awaiting your post...unless I missed it somewhere...

[SoonToBe]

I'm anxious to hear results too. 

[eakelly5]

I hope everything went well!

[earth-mama]

I hope everything went well!! Let us know.

[jillybeans]

thanks so much everyone. My u/s was at 4pm PST,an hour from home, then we had to eat!

omg, I'm in disbelief ladies!!!!

Had my NT today.  Everything went well, and my fears were put to rest.  The doc said things looked girly based on his experience, but at the end, saw a great nub shot and now says he is confident it's a boy!  We'll find out in a month or so for sure. :)



nub shot...on the left


I love my doc, and he knows me well, and I really believe he wouldn't tell me it was a boy unless he was confident.  We've decided we ARE having a son until we are proven otherwise.  If things change next month, well then at least we had a son for a month! lol

[copper.kettle]

So happy to hear the good news!!  YAY BLUE!!!  Sons are the bomb :)

[MovingMomma]

  I'm so glad to hear everything went well!  

[SoonToBe]

Woo hoo!  I have been checking in like 80 times today to see if you had updated.  I was getting worried when we hadn't heard.  I'm so glad everything went so well.  Congrats on your healthy, beautiful son!!!