I'm not sure how I'll even be able to do the blood testing if I have to. I hate needles (the 1-hour test was torture enough without a 3-hour/4 blood draw and daily sticking, too... but of everything this is currently the least of my worries)
I worry about just what I'll be forced to consent to in terms of the birth and I now dread thinking of going into labor. I've all this time (for 8 years now) been looking forward to giving birth to another child and now I just dread the whole thing - until I get answers back, that is. I'm preparing myself to hear the worst, and hoping for the small chance that the best will happen. It's rough not knowing when I'll even find out what's going on, too. If I just knew what stance my midwife would take on the high risk/vaginal/ water birth vs c-section I could maybe calm just a bit, but this not knowing is eating away at me.
I haven't been feeling bad at all. I've finally been infection free for a week, I'm walking 12 blocks a day, the only thing is I have heartburn like mad at times and breathing is getting harder, lol. But I can't say as though I've been feeling 'yucky' and can look at it as a good thing to feel any better if I have to do all this. I know I'm seeing things from a somewhat limited scope now, but everything I've read on GD and C-sections terrifies me. DH will be working 2 jobs, and if he has to take leave from them to help out post c-section we are gonna hurt. Not to mention I can't work, either. Then our family vacation is put in jeopardy as well, and there's no way I'm not showing my family the new baby this Christmas. Ugh, see, getting ahead of myself again. But yeah, all that I read on c-section recovery is meds, meds, meds, meds, meds. I wanted none at all. It's so hard not to mourn the possibility of losing the entire birth plan in the blink of an eye.
And I must say, with your eating so well it shocks me that you are falling under the GD umbrella, too. And if this all comes down to hormones, which can't be controlled (we all know how that goes, lol) Then how can changing diet and such change what the hormones do, too? It doesn't much seem to make sense. Makes me seem like I'm hopeless as we don't eat all that well, well, I don't. Anything meats or eggs has been making me sick the whole pregnancy, so I moved to all the carbs just because I could keep them down better. Trying again to keep them down though, with the hopes that I can beat this next screening... I can only hope.
Off to get loads more food filled with meat and protine and hopefully less carbs, lol. Also planning to get something nice for the baby.. I need to feel excited about this again even if it means shopping for a nice going home outfit for her.