Is my vag ever going to feel normal again?
all of the above and some of it could be your own apprehension about it (tensing up) ...this probably isnt the main problem if it hurts just to wipe
another poster mentioned granulated scar tissue and thats really what I would guess it is too..I'd have it checked out...a gentle practitioner will be very mindful of being careful with checking it out if they know it hurts and hurts bad ahead of time so don't put it off!
Blarg. I'm such a wimp about having things done to me. Birth was easy (well, maybe manageable is a better word) because it was my body doing it. That's why I wanted a really hands-off homebirth, why I didn't want stitches, etc. Because I'm a wimp about needles and procedures and having my body messed with. I had a panic attack when I had my wisdom teeth out ten years ago right before they put me under. Okay, end of tangential rant. I will suck it up and get some medical care. Thanks again, all!
I had an episiotomy (not the same, I know), but mine bled and hurt for over a year. Every time I had it looked at, they said it was fine...OB and midwife. Trust me, it didn't feel fine. It did eventually heal, but I was not pleased at everyone telling me it looked fine. I feel your pain. I hope someone can help you!
With my first son, I had a third degree tear (which did get stitched up). It took a good seven months until sex was pleasurable again. Sometimes healing can take awhile but since you're having discomfort wiping, I think that's worth talking to someone about.
I had a second degree tear with my second about a month ago and hope sex will be okay sooner this time again....
(I imagine your tear was just first degree to not be stitched....)