So I'm wondering if my expectations of myself as an "unschooler" are unrealistic.... Any moment that I take that isn't with my kids, and I do take them with relative frequency, is guilt-laden. That includes time spent on the internet researching/discussing schooling/parenting, time spent cleaning the house, time I may spend showering... as well as time pursuing my own interests (of which i have many). We recently moved to a place where Montessori schools are charter schools and my children could attend at no cost to us. I do not entirely agree with the philosophy of Montessori education, there are pieces of it that seriously don't sit right in my heart, but it is definitely better than any 'regular' public school, and I have considered it as a possible avenue of education because I feel like there is no time for me at all if I am to unschool. I feel like this must be unrealistic because I have known several unschooling families where both parents are still able to follow their own passions, keep the house in relative clean and working order, and even shower and brush their own teeth. There must be a way to make it work and I want to find that balance. I do not want to compromise my beliefs by sending my kids to montessori because I feel that if every waking moment of my life is not spent with them helping them to pursue their interests than I am a failure as both a parent and an educator. The bigger point to this thread is that I am a post-production photo artist and in order to maintain that I need to work with photoshop on a daily basis. I understand that I get 'me' time everyday or I'll go insane, I know that's completely legitimate, but I don't want the photoshop time to be at the expense of dancing or meditating or journaling. I am not saying I want to sit around selfishly fulfilling my own needs for the entire day, but I want to feel whole and not fragmented. I also understand that each family finds it's own unique schedule and rhythm to life, and I have been blessed with one child that plays well independently and right now a toddler that likes to eat my time like candy (this too shall pass, i think). But I am hoping that someone can help me to get an idea of how much of my passions I can pursue and how much of myself I have to abandon for the moment..... I work on ways of incorporating "me" time with them when possible... we tidy the house together, we stretch and sometimes do breathing exercises together, my eldest and I even journal side by side sometimes..... but if I wanna take 2 hours a day and hire a sitter and work on my art--- is this being selfish? unrealistic? would they be better off in a montessori charter school? any thoughts/experiences?
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