There's so much I relate to with all of you that I can't even repeat it.
I won't eat factory farm meat either, no way. I'd rather eat beans and rice, too. Luckily I live in an agricultural community, and right now I'm researching the most economical way to purchase local-est and organic-est meat we can afford.
Last year we did a fruit/veggie CSA, and it set us back quite a bit coz we had to pay upfront, but the price per week was like $30 for a ridiculous amount of groceries. Seems to me the best way would be to approach meat similarly, hit up local farms and talk to them about a bulk deal, ie buy so many whole chickens and get a discount per pound. So I have been googling and looking on eatwild and localharvest to find farmers within a short drive from whom we could purchase ethical meat.
The first meat I ate post-veg was chicken, and a big part of why I bought the chicken is because I was massively craving bone broth---I really feel like my body needs it right now. The chicken meat was actually secondary to me for getting that broth, like it's medicinal at this point. Before we used it up, we were all having a hot cup of broth with a little salt and squeeze of lemon in the morning like coffee I swear it was so energizing like I could feel my body absorbing the nutrition
Dd was funny abt the whole thing; she was getting all grossed out by the idea, but my girl loves her some broth. When she smelled the broth cooking, that was a deal sealer. She was helping me take the meat off the bone in no time.
Btw, they do make "ethical pepperoni" ;) and salami and such. Let me find a link, they are a local company to me . . . well at least here is bison summer sausage, which is pretty similar right? http://www.elkusa.com/Rich's%20Bargain%20Barn.htm It's even on sale
My big step was deciding in my mind that I was going to do this. I went to the hfs and kept repeating my meat mantra to myself "I'm going to buy a chicken; I'm going to buy a chicken" and I circled around and got my produce and perused forever over what chicken to buy, but I did it! I want the process to be my own, so I'm initiating all the steps and not relying on dh (the meat eater) to buy, wash, cook, etc.
And honestly, learning to cook again is fun! I'm just totally open right now. I don't want to limit myself at all so I'm kind of forcing myself to spread out and try the stuff that maybe intellectually sounds bad to me personally (like bacon or lamb, tho I can see why those might be good "first meats" for other post-veges), and I'm going to seek them out and at least give it a chance, trying not to carry any of my former food preferences into this. So maybe that means game meat which always sounded yucky, maybe I'll even try organ meat (tho I can't wrap my mind around that right now).
If I could describe how I feel right now about accepting this change, it would be "RELIEF" I just feel this huge release and like a weight has lifted off of me, though at the same time I do feel like it's an identity change? just coz being veg really was a big part of my life.
Anyway, I'm really glad that you are all here. Thanks for showing up on this thread