I have been on zoloft in the past for severe anxiety/depression/ocd. The need for medication arose after my children were born... my symptoms got much worse. I took medication for slightly over 2 years, and stopped. Over the last 18 months, my symptoms have gotten much worse.. panic attacks, disturbing thoughts, interfering with my daily functioning... I would rather lay in bed all day than face the world. I don't like to leave home. I am afraid to eat certain things or go to the grocery store because I am afraid of allergic reactions to food.
The thing I am most afraid of about medication is an allergic reaction to it. But I've taken zoloft before, with no troubles. I just keep picturing myself suddenly unable to breathe, covered in hives, and not getting help in time. I am afraid of all medications in this way, I don't even take Tylenol for headaches or anything. I am afraid my asthma meds will kill me every day I have to take them.
Just looking for help and support. I also know that looking back at my own posts helps me. Maybe in 2 weeks after I try meds, I will see this post and realize how silly I was to be so afraid. But for now, I am paralyzed. Can't move forward. Just wanting some support, and maybe rational thought about taking the meds. Thanks.