moonshoes.... Boy, your sister was very rude. I am sorry you had to go through that! It is just not ok to treat anyone the way you were just treated! Just curious: What happens now? Your sister gets to have her little fit, knowingly trying to hurt your feelings, and then everything goes on as if it never happened? (I feel like she acted like a child and should be confronted. BUT, families are difficult. There are no real difficult conversations with my extended family, ever....)
You are all in my prayers, especially PatienceandLove.
Our dear, (I dare say) holy, priest was just buried. It was much harder for me that I had thought. I mean, 90-year-olds do die and often are well prepared for their departure from this life. Yet, I will miss him! He is the only very saintly person I have got the honor to see weekly. On the other hand, it is a reallty amazing thought to think that someone I saw every Sunday is likely in heaven now. He helped our family so much on earth that I have no doubt he will continue to do so in heaven. In addition to all he did here, he has already taught me so much after his death. I have kept thinking of how he lived for God every moment of every day. How he always made a gift of himself to others. It makes me wonder what can honestly be said about me after I die. "She became bitter, angry and cynical after she was never blessed with another biological child, as she felt she was a better mom than most and should have been entitled" does not sound exactly like what I am hoping for... ;) So, I am trying to be very conscious to let go of my wants and to make a gift of myself to others. I want to accept God's plan for me, completely.
I find it highly interesting how people (even "good Catholics") respond when something very painful takes place. Some are able to find strength in God and some even to offer up their suffering. Yet, many turn away and become angry with God, even lose their faith completely. I have been trying to figure out what the factor is that devides people into the ones being able to accept the suffering- at least at some point- and those turning away from God when tested. (Whether it is truly a test or just something God has allowed, for whatever reason. Maybe those two are the same thing, anyway.)