Preparing for loss with no timetable

[hollyvangogh]

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Edited by hollyvangogh - 2/23/11 at 4:00pm

[Sol_y_Paz]

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Originally Posted by hollyvangogh 

My mom has severe, progressive MS. 

My step-dad says I don't need to go see her right away...but I don't know if he's just trying to be positive. She doesn't deserve this. She's one of "the good people" that bad things happen to.

She's in Ohio. I'm in Alberta.  It's been hard sometimes, listening to friends talk about how their mothers came to help after their babies were born. My mother couldn't. And DD is only 2 now. She won't even remember Grandma. She'll never know what an amazing woman she was or how strong or brave she was. I'll tell her stories but DD will never personally know her or feel the normal love a granddaughter has for her grandma. 

I just, I don't know how to deal with this. I don't know how I'm supposed to deal with being on the edge of total grief for an unknown length of time. The uncertainty alone is enough to drive a person mad, but that the uncertainty is about the death of my mom is just too much. I'm only 25. I'm not supposed to have to worry about saying goodbye to her yet. And I've never had to deal with the death of ANYbody before. This is not a great way to be introduced to grief.

I am so sorry.  And it just isn't fair.  Your mom sounds like a great person. 

I don't know if this will help but I am also in my 20's and I lost my mom recently after a long hard debilitating illness. Nothing could have prepared me for the depth of pain I feel right now, we were so close she was my best friend.  I am still in shock.  

Now my kids and my siblings kids won't even know her, this wonderful special person.  And it is just hard.

Edited by Sol_y_Paz - 2/24/11 at 4:00pm