I finally feel like I "belong" in this DDC! LOL
I saw the midwives and the gynocological oncologist and not only does the baby look good but the "maybe cancer" they found in January is now "amost certainly not cancer"! I can finally start letting myself believe that this is happening, and start dealing with the surprise of a fourht child.
~~(I was taking a medication for thrush that can cause extreme birth defects when taken during the first few weeks of a pregnancy. So there was a very real concern that the babe wouldn't develop properly... but we had to wait and see since it isn't till around 12 weeks that the affected parts are visible on u/s. I'll have more scans to keep an eye on the ovarian cysts and to double check anatomical issues with the babe but overall I am feeling SO MUCH BETTER it's almost crazy)~~
That said, the all day stomache simply isn't letting up... I've felt cruddy for two whole months now. Not throwing up, but always "on the edge" of throwing up. Ugh. I'm actually losing weight! I'm not worried (and neither are my care providers) but I'd really really really like to feel normal-ish again. I had long, strong, morning sickness with my first but with number two and number three it wasn't so bad. This time though I'm 12 weeks and still feeling like I've been hit by a train. At least I know that this is part of an ok pregnancy though. It's been horrible to feel sick while also being uncertain about whether the pregnancy was viable.
but i am having lots more good days too! good luck getting to the other side--the second trimester! 
Yay!
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