I'm inspired by the lists, ladies! Since this is our first, I'm just trying to figure out for the first time what we should and shouldn't do.
I live in Boston and am absolutely over winter. That has put a huge damper on my activity level too- I have so little motivation to run after work when it is 10 degrees outside and dark. I usually run less in the winter than the summer anyway, so that is normal, but now I feel like I don't want to move... I just want to come home, curl up and snuggle with my husband, and go to sleep by 9pm. Normally, if I go a few days without exercising, I start feeling grumpy and irritable. I haven't had a good workout since Saturday, which, ironically, probably makes me feel even more tired. And I have no intention of running outside when it is so cold today.
And then there is the whole issue of my pants getting tighter. I know that obviously, I'm pregnant, and this is to be expected, but I guess I wasn't prepared for it to happen already. And the bloating is just the worse... especially in the evenings, I'll go from normal in the morning to looking like I'm 6 months by 7pm. I thought I had skipped out on all forms of morning sickness, so I'm dissappointed to feel so yucky, queasy, and worn down. It is hard not feeling like myself. I'm sorry to vent, but I had to get that off my chest.
On a few positive notes though, I remember one momma on this board saying something along the lines of "growing a human being is hard work." My little blueberry just doubled in size from last week (I'm 7w2d now). No wonder I feel exhausted and moody and crappy! That's a lot of amazing growing happening!
Also, it has been really cool seeing how DH's feelings about pregnancy have changed. I still don't think it is really "real" for him yet though. He's really supportive of meeting with the midwives, and actually having a homebirth, which is awesome. When we first found out, he was pretty panicked that his life had suddenly already changed completely. (I was lamenting that even though we now knew we were preggo, nothing really felt different yet). He initially had all kinds of mixed feelings- fear, anxiety, uncertainty, etc. He's also graduating in May with his 3rd master's degree- perpetual nerd, so he's stressed about thesis, finding a job, the possibility of moving etc. At first, he felt really guilty for having mixed feelings, like that made him a bad person to not be as excited as I was. I assured him that no matter how much we wanted this baby, there will be times when we both will wonder what we've gotten ourselves into... So, finding out we were pregnant was harder for each of us than we both expected, but now I'm just feeling so amazed to have him as my husband. Now, I'm feeling so loved and supported by him, and everytime I look at him, I think about what an amazing father he'll be. *Gush*