Seraf- I knew it! Congrats! Here's to a H&H 9 months!
Vegan- Singing my "Just Keep Swimming" song for your Swimmers! Here's hoping your TWW is a short one with a BFP at the end of it! SN: I am going to look into the donors at California Cryo. 10 is not a whole lot, but it's more than we are working with now which is 0 so I'll take it. YAY for insurance paying for what we need them to pay for!
Graceie- Sorry about the BFN
Krista- I know the pain you are experiencing all too well, and I am also fully aware that not a whole lot I say will help you during this time, I just want you to know that I am sending you Love and Light for the pain that your heart is feeling right now.
Library- In less than a week your official countdown to 40 weeks/Baby's Done Cooking/Labor will begin and I am SO excited to meet little Aspidistra!!!! BOO to the Mean Girls!
Indigo- YAY for Civil Parntership!
Mami- Our AFs must have attended the same pissed off/angry/I'll show you conference because mine was the same way this month! GL on your insems!
2ez- Sucks that DS didn't do well, but the great this is that he even got out there and tried and it was the State Regionals at that so BRAVO to him! Singing "Just Keep Swimming" for your swimmers as well keeping my Fx for your BFP!
Gelly- Singing "Just Keep Swimming" for your swimmers! Here's to a short 2WW with a GREAT BIG POSITIVE at the end!
Nos- You have joined a group of amazing women who will support you through all the ups and downs you may go through! Thank you so much for your kind words! I wish we did I have a teleporter to send some of the African-French donors you speak of to the states. Yeah we are def not leaning towards the KD thing there is a website that has free donors but I have just run into a lot of creepsters thus far! Keeping my fingers crossed that all of your symptoms are pregnancy symptoms!
Kelly- Isn't Body Obsession FUN *insert sarcasm* Here's to obsession that leads to a BFP :-)
Crystal- I hope that your insem went great and that you have a wonderful 2ww that speeds by and results in a BFP!
Irish- I am sorry that your injections are awful hopefully you won't have to do them again because you'll be pregnant! TTC can be a difficult process but with the support of your partner and us here I hope you find a support network you can rely on!
Isa- Welcome back! I am so happy that you were able to INDULGE on wonderful things that you usually can't eat! LOL at the Dildo Cam! Happy to hear everything is sounding good!
Maybe- The 2ww can be agonizing personally I just try to keep myself very busy!
Max- Thank you for the California Cryobank rec! We are going to take a look at the 10 that are there and hopefully find 1! Sending you positive healing vibes for your polyp removal
Graceie- At this point I would take a poop covered back from a baby then to be sitting here in silence listening to the rain anyday
BABY DUST to all that need it! And if I missed anyone charge it to my head, not my heart....
-----WHEW!------- That was a lot of personals!!
AFM- First of all I want to say thank you all so much for your loving and kind words about our KD situation. I am starting to see through the pain that this may be the Universe telling me that he does not deserve the honor of being our donor. I O'd yesterday and it felt like a piece of me died, but today I am feeling better and trying to look on the bright side. Even though DP and I are not religious people I am very spiritual and we both were raised in strict religious families so we have decided to take part in Lent in hopes that it helps in our TTC efforts.
VENT: So today while DP was at work she sent me a text saying "Can I ask you a Question?" I knew it couldn't be good from the start since she had to ask me before asking. I responded yes and she proceeds to tell me that since we met with the Midwife she has been doing a lot of thinking, and she wanted to ask but wasn't sure how to ask: What if she didn't want me to try anymore and that she should take it from here? Meaning she carry the baby since it's not working with me. I know she means well, I know deep down she is only trying to avoid the pain I feel every month but I feel like she slapped me in the face and punched me in the gut all at the same time. I already feel so defected, so broken. I know it's irrational but women are made to make babies and I can't seem to make or keep one and it's so discouraging. Her question makes me feel like those feelings I hold deep inside are true. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say to her? she doesn't do well with these kinds of things so no one jump on her case about texting I'm not upset about that. Advice? Suggestions? Kind words? Anything?