Without getting into too much detail, this is something I've struggled with all my life. It's very important for me now not to put too much thought on weight loss because either one of two things will happen. I'll either overeat or I'll start starving myself. This is a struggle that I don't think will ever go away.
I can remember a time when people were telling me I was getting too thin and I still thought I was fat.
Man, now I know what fat is. :LOLI wonder how food/eating sort of takes on a life of it's own.
It's different for everyone. For me it started when I was in highschool. I felt like I had no control over anything in my life, was depressed, and was always teased about being fat as a kid. It was too hard to eat a proper diet. Believe it or not, starving was easier for me.Are good therapists in this field rare?
I don't know. I never talked to anyone about it. I've written more here than I've ever told anyone before.]How far back do you remember eating/not eating like this?
First when I was a young teen, and then again when I was around 18 after my father died. That set it off again. I could go either way when depressed. Either I'll overeat or I'll go hungry.What about smoking-instead-of-eating? & body image/media?
I've done it, but that was a long time ago.I can't remember which book- but one woman described how she ate one-fourth of a bagel crumb-by-crumb. I was in awe of her self-control/self-discipline- but I didn't understand.
Sounds crazy right? Even crazier is that when you are done eating that 1/4 of a bagel crumb at a time you feel like you've overeaten.I have a thin build (though I'm not 'skinny' like when I was younger) and it seems my body always cues me what/when/how much to eat. So how are these cues formed?
Good question. I think the problem is knowing when you are full, or eating after you feel full. When you are starving yourself you feel less hungry over time and that becomes easier than eating but stopping before you binge. For me, I am often hungry when I shouldn't be. If I ate every time I was hungry I'd gain a ton of weight.