*** Bitter Sushi Ladies, March 2011 Thread *** - Page 14
Ohhh... MBA... I have always kept thinking of you: I worked at a daycare for some months before getting pregnant with dd, and it was really bitter sweet to be hugging others people's kids all day. I am so so thrilled for you!
My mom got me a 1,5 hour's massage and I am going this morning. I have had terrible neck and back issues, though am doing better right now, so I am really looking forward to it, looking forward to seeing if this could help things get totally normal.
My head is spinning from all the reading I have done in the past couple of days. I don't feel right about writing much about dh, but let's just say that there is a pretty good chance that there is at least something going on with him (also?). I have suffered with my body for the past 4,5 years or so and have seen myself as very broken, it's been one things after another. The idea that maybe, just maybe, there is nothing wrong with my body anymore is amazing. Dh's issue, if such exists, is one that we could do something about, well, at least try. If he really does have an issue, we would know whether or not it was fixed at all, and that would help us both move on, if it did not get better.
So... we are going to be doing the perforated condom thing to get a SA done. (At least Catholics and Orthodox Jews, apparently, know what I am talking about.) I order the, well, needed things online, and it was the strangest feeling, as I have not touched one since health education in junior high. Ha! Had to order from abroad, which is a bit funny, also. It is going to be really strange: I will need to stick the sample in my bra and hurry to the capital to deliver it. Really, the whole idea makes me laugh.
I think dh is struggling with some thoughts about all this, and I feel so bad for him. However, I think this is becoming more of a reality for him, also, for the first time, and that is positive. Somehow time just keeps going on, and I am not sure he feels the years gone by quite as I do. I am really aware that I have gone from 28 (just a bit younger than average for 1st child here) to 34, which is when doctors already start mentioning your age... You know, as long as it was just that I was not getting pregnant, I think dh could think that it could happen any time. If the SA results are not good, the situation will be quite different. (And if they are good, or so so, I am totally back to square one.....) I think we will try to do the SA asap, and then, depending on the results, pay out of pocket so he can see a private doctor. I don't want to wait for months waiting for "the letter" to be seen, if this is something we can take care of meanwhile.
I am so happy about the positive turns in the thread, lately. I hope those BFP's will just keep coming. AFM, I now realize that I will feel different if we find out what has been wrong. Child or not, I feel light at the end of this tunner I have been in for years. I can accept things if we get a reason. It is the "should I try this or that next" that is driving me bitter and nuts.
LessTraveledBy - Good to see another North American (American? Canadian?) transplant here in Scandinavia. I'm guessing Denmark from your comments about a pretty same-same looking population? Or I guess that goes for Norway and Finland too. Sweden has done pretty well with immigration, integration, and a generally more diverse society than its neighbors. There's still racism here (well, everywhere on planet earth, as far as I've noticed), but you're right, international adoption is so common people don't even lift an eyebrow. My sister was adopted from Sri Lanka in the 1970s, and grew up in a tiny town where she was the only non-blond kid. That was occasionally problematic (she was very popular, but when voted "Lucia" one year -- you know what I'm talking about -- there were some "svartskalle" insults hurled her way). But I think that a lot of racism comes from ignorance and fear of another's culture, rather than actual skin and hair color. So adopted kids, having the same culture as their adopted parents, will usually not be picked on. My husband and I are leaving this afternoon for a two day adoption parenting class, so I might have different insights in a couple days :)
MBA - please keep every thought and detail coming! I don't think I'm the only one who is loving the joyride, a big smile plastered on my face thinking about what you're going through!
Hi there ladies.... I had a really odd feeling on the way home from my school trip tonight that I should pop in and check up on y'all.... so now I'm just coming out of semi-retirement to say
OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MBA - I LITERALLY just started dancing around my loungeroom hugging my netbook!!!!!!! (I'm glad ds is asleep... lol) Oh honey, I'm crying I'm so happy for you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Wishing you a productive (learning wise, you know), wonderful weekend. Yes, I am in one of those countries. You know, the one where the people hate Swedes. ;) Or does that do for all of them, I don't know.. ha ha. (I am paranoid, so I don't normally mention my country anywhere online.) I am actually a native of this place, it is dh that is the American...
Edited by LessTraveledBy - 3/18/11 at 7:48am
Also poking in now that it has simmered down around here...
Congratulations MBA!!! That is awesomely, amazing news! So inspiring! Happy and very healthy 9 months to you! Can't wait to see your beta results! :)
I have been focusing more on my health lately and have lost 7 pounds in the last 2 weeks... hoping it helps a little. I think I am Oing today (later then I ever remember before... nice) and DH and I have BD'd the last 3 nights so hoping that does the job. I don't know if we'll get the chance tonight but I'll give it a shot. Next month makes 4 and a half years since we have been hoping for our third baby. I'd rather not see that anniversary without a positive pee stick but know the odds are slim so trying to keep positive, regardless. :)
Hope you girls are all doing well... I'd like to see MBA starting a trend around here.
I have such a hard time posting since that last update to MDC... I can't use my google chrome to post, only IE and it's incredibly slow. It makes it really hard to update. :(
Although I never post anymore (for reasons I just don't have the energy to explain at the moment), I always read along and follow the developments with the BSL. You Ladies are always on my mind.
MBA - This is the BEST news I've heard in a long time! I am so, soooo happy for you. You have constantly amazed (and entertained) me with your incredibly positive attitude and kind words for everyone in the BSL. I'm looking forward to your updates (which will no doubt also be filled with hilarious stories ) throughout the pregnancy. Did you do an IUI this cycle? If so, maybe it's twins!!! Time to dust off some of those silly twin-names!
I'm using Chrome without trouble, you may want to start a thread in Questions and Suggestions describing your problem in more detail.
AFM... okay, so my beta was 43.1. So "YAY" for a BFP, finally! and "hmm" for my number. The blood draw was this morning at 11dpo, and the nurse said on the message that they "really like it to be at least 50 by this point, but it's possible you implanted a day or two later than we expected." But could she be assuming I was coming in for my 14dpo bloodwork, which was originally scheduled for Monday and I changed the appointment? I'm nervous now, but I also feel like 50 by 11dpo as a minimum is high. I left a message and I'm hoping they'll call back soon. In the meantime, I'm doing a whole lot of research.
Betabase has 24 for the median value on 11DPO, so I think your number is great. Either way though, I think the amount it increases by is more important than the actual number. Hopefully they call back and set your mind at ease. When is your 2nd beta?
Music-- I was just about to send you a message on Facebook! I realized this morning before going in to work that you hadn't been around here in over a week (? I think) and I should tell you :) It's so sweet that you (and so many others) care for me so much... I don't know what to do with that emotion. I was the weird girl with almost no friends when I was younger; I'm not used to having a "group" really (even though I've come to develop some amazing IRL friendships), so it really touches my heart to read all these comments.
heh... I haven't posted since I was TK in January (aside from a few PMs).... but I simply could not contain myself!!!!!!! Words simply can not describe how excited I am for you!!!!!! If it was warm enough to get out of bed I'd be dancing around the loungeroom again and end up waking DS up!!!!!!! (Hence the abundance of exclamation points!!!!!) lol I was "weird" at school too, I think.... put it this way - not many people even really knew who I was because I was too shy to talk in class and in breaks I was always in the Music room..... Sending SO many excited hugs to you right now!!!!
MBA - YAY for the positive beta!! Maybe I will be threadkeeper in April...
AFM - Had the exam and sonohistogram today. It was with the nurse practitioner, whom I like a bit better than the RE. Still not overly impressed with the practice as a whole, but... meh. It was not the most fun thing I have ever done - the catheter and the saline injection definitely caused cramping! (And I forgot to take advil in advance. :P) She said everything looks good, and that she could see fluid behind my uterus, which means at least one of my tubes is open, so I shouldn't need an HSG. She also found that I have the classic "pearl necklace" of cysts associated with PCOS. I haven't doubted my PCOS diagnosis (made on the basis of blood tests and menstrual irregularities), but this really seals it. Sort of nice to have that extra confirmation.
Next step - meeting with the doctor March 28th to get a treatment protocol. It still feels kind of surreal. But with MBA getting pregnant, I suddenly feel like pregnancy is really a possible thing, not something that just doesn't happen to people like me. :)
I'll take it if no one else wants it. I should be doing my first letrozole cycle in April, with IUI#3, I could use some extra luck. But I guess we all could, eh?