I feel like such a bad "intactivist". Last week at my OB's office, a couple walked in while I was waiting to see my doc. They put their baby's carrier on the bench and signed in. When the receptionist asked why they were there, the mom said, "We're here for his circumcision. We were gonna do it in the hospital, but never got to it. She said come in today."
There I am. There's a chance to save a little boy. And there I sat, very pregnant with my second intact little boy, with my first little boy running around like crazy and my little girl wanting to look at the poor little baby who was about to be violated.
I could have done so much. I could have said so many things that were running in my head. But everytime I thought of something, I thought of a reason to keep my mouth shut. I continued about my appointment. When I left, they weren't in the waiting room. I never heard a loud scream (small office). I only pray something happened, and they never did it.
So, I was thinking of the reason why I didn't say anything, and I want to talk though these issues. I'm also going to head over to nocirc or doctors against circumcision and print up some pamphlets to keep in my bag so I don't have to be so confrontational.
- Fear of confrontation. This has kept me from being more active in evangelism and activism issues. I know it's wrong to let it keep me from this, and I pray all the time for less fear and more confidence in myself and my beliefs.
- Racial divide. I'm white (for all intensive purposes--my dad's Puerto Rican and his grandfather was black, but I look white), the couple who came in was black. The only people I know who have intact children are white. I don't know anyone who is black that has kept their son intact. I know this sounds racist, and God knows I'm not (see above explanation of my background. It's kind of impossible for me to be). It's more ignorance than anything. For that matter, I wouldn't know how to approach an Asian or Hispanic couple either...
- Fear of getting told off. The mother already had attitude with the receptionist, and I didn't want to get into it, especially in front of my kids.
I hope I get some encouragement here. I really don't know where else to go for it. I don't know how to get over these fears/biases/ignorances to help other babies than my own.