Ceinwen, interesting what you said about being better at work than at home... I guess I'm still figuring out if I'm better at work or at home... A lot of the time I feel so bored playing with DS (guilty!) but then I have days where we are so connected and I love being with him, which I would hate to give up.  I think I would prefer to do neither, to be honest! The only times I really feel are 'time off' are when I am reading a book or hanging out with friends. It's strange - I had such a strong work ethic during my pre-motherhood life, most people would describe me as a very disciplined, conscientious and driven person. I still am in lots of ways but I find single parenthood SO exhausting, it just feels like work would be another thing to resent and take time away from me recharging my batteries. Maybe I just haven't found the work yet that is really ME and makes me feel fulfilled.
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It turns out the university don''t have bursaries for part time study, only full time. Bleah. Could still apply for external funding but the prospects are not as likely for an artsy-fartsy 'unecessary' degree like mine. Full time this year is not feasible for me b/c there's no way I could afford the childcare unless I was working...I could perhaps do it full time the following year when DS starts school fulltime, but even then it'd be a stretch. So I'm now thinking, I might just work a minimal amount of hours per week (which wouldnt make me any better off financially, all but 30 dollars of the amount I earn would just get taken off my benefit/welfare payments), like 4-6, doing the breastfeeding counselling stuff, to keep in the loop and see how I feel doing that and whether I want to do more once DS is in school. Just getting a feel for it.
