Hey ladies, here's my story...
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For a few years I have felt the presence of my future babies somewhere out there. I recognize their presence as the people I love most in the world, but who I haven't met yet. I can't remember exactly when I started feeling them but I know it was after I met DH. However their presence always felt very vague and far away.
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I started TTC last August right after DH and I got married. In my 3rd month TTC it was the day of my ovulation and all of a sudden I felt the presence of one of those babies become a lot stronger and feel more real and close to me. I felt like it was right next to me, and the thought "Mommy I'm ready to join your life" came into my head. It's hard to describe what it was like, it wasn't like hearing the words or seeing them written, the thought just appeared in my head and it seemed obvious to me that it wasn't my own thought. Also the presence felt more like a boy than a girl, though I couldn't say for sure that "he" will be born in a male body.
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The next day after I had ovulated I could still feel his presence, but instead of feeling like a presence outside of me, I felt like he was inside of me! This lasted for about a week then I started spotting and a couple of days later (the day before AF started), I actually felt the presence leave me.
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When AF came I got extremely upset. I thought maybe I had missed my chance for that particular baby, that he would never come back, that I had lost him forever. The feeling of loss was so intense that I cried for days... I called in sick to work because I couldn't control my crying. I felt like a zombie... when people talked to me I just couldn't comprehend what they were saying.
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Then about a week before my next O I went to an acupuncture treatment. During that treatment I felt my baby's presence return! I was lying there and I had the most vivid sensation of being hugged, and the thought popped into my head "Mommy don't worry, we'll both keep trying until we can be together". And then I felt him holding my hand. The sensation felt so real that I kept looking at my hand to make sure it was actually empty! In that moment I went from feeling absolutely miserable to being super happy!
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The sensation of my baby holding my hand lasted for about a week and it was a huge comfort to me. It gave me renewed hope. I understood that we were going to be together someday, and that it would happen eventually though maybe not right away!
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A week later, on the day of my ovulation (November 17), I had another acupuncture treatment (I was going once a week). As I was walking home I started humming the happy birthday song. Then I was like, why is this song in my head? Is it the birthday of someone I know? I thought of everyone's birthday I knew and it wasn't anyone. Then the thought popped into my head "silly mommy, its my birthday!" At first I wasn't sure whether it meant that my baby was going to be conceived on November 17 (since that was my O day), or born on November 17. As it turned out I did not get pregnant that month, so I started to believe that my baby would be born on November 17th.
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After that I was way more relaxed about the next couple of cycles because I knew the due date wouldn't be in November. In January I was at another acupuncture treatment sometime between AF and O and I felt his presence hovering over my shoulder and got the impression that he whispered in my ear "soon".
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For my February cycle I was super hopeful because I would have had a due date in early November and I know that 1st babies tend to be born a bit late. Unfortunately, nothing happened.
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Which brings us to today...this cycle I would have a due date at the end of November, so it could still happen! My fingers are crossed. However I do have some fertility issues and I may not be able to get pregnant without medical help, which I have just begun to seek. And even if he is born on November 17, it could be November 17th of another year. All I can do is wait and see.
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A few things I noticed about these communications:
1) They always happened during my fertile phase (1 week or less before ovulation)
2) They seemed to be linked to the acupuncture. I didn't start having them until I had been doing acupuncture for 6 weeks. They always happened on the day of an acupuncture treatment (with the exception of the first contact which happened 2 days after a treatment), and ever since I cut down the acupuncture treatments to once every 2 weeks at the end of January I have not had any more contact.
3) The contact was always initiated by my baby, not by me.
4) Contact only happened when my mind wasn't otherwise occupied. It happened to me in the shower, while walking, and while lying there at the acupuncture treatment. It never happened when I was reading or talking to someone or watching TV.
5) I really believe that my baby wanted me to know he was there and that we were a team and we were taking this journey together. I also felt that he loved me very much and he wanted to help me.
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