another kid or am i just bored??

[eblindauer]

so i thought school would help me get over wanting another kid, cuz i defiantly got my hands full!!!!!!! i got a 3 year old and an 18 month old both boys. they are stubborn and testy and you know how your parents say your gonna have kids just like you.. well i had kids just like my mother lmao. and everyone i know is pregnant and having kids so that don't help. i know I'm not mentally ready for another yet i cannot get it out of my mind! i get frustrated with my kids which is normal, but do i really want another or is it some kinda not being pregnant thing? i miss it even though my second time was horrible. and I REALLY want a girl. and I'm turning 26 and don't want kids after 30. i would like to foster later on.. what problems do you guys have, and how do you deal with them? 

i also think a lot of it has to do too with my grandma dieing for some reason it hit even harder cuz she was so waiting for me to have a girl! idk what to do help plz!

[SubliminalDarkness]

All I can suggest is give it time. I get the baby itch a lot. But then it fades. And then it resurfaces. And fades. And so on. 

I don't know what the solution is. I don't know if you really do want another, I don't know if it's right for you or not, I just don't know. But all you can do is embrace what you have now and just move from day to day making the best of what you have in front of you.