I'm new here and haven't posted much. I'm 8 months pregnant with #3 and have been having a very hard time reconciling with my fears. I finally recognized that I was trying to deal with everything with external preparation and realized what I really needed was to go within and figure out WHY I was having so much fear.
My first two where both vaginal-unmedicated deliveries. One in a hospital setting and the second at home. I keep thinking that I should be fine, I've done this! But I realized that all my fear stems from the fear I had during the pushing phase with my second. My first was born on her due date and just shy of 6 lbs. The pushing part was hard work, but I don't recall feeling any real pain, just incredible uncomfortableness. My second was born at home and was 9lb 8oz, in the pushing stage I began to feel my bones push apart and was griped with fear-it wasn't something I experienced the first time and I hadn't read it in any books, etc.. sure I understood logically that the bones are flexible for birth, but I never FELT it before and it really scared me. Once she was fully crowned I had that ring of fire burning, another aspect of childbirth I hadn't previously encountered.
Now I am really scared. My third is due on May 11th and is somewhere in between my other two in size (thank goodness).
If you have had multiple births, I really would like to know did you feel your bones push apart like this every time? It was so
alarmingly difficult for me I feel like I need to know so that I can prepare myself for it this time and can come up with coping mechanisms.
Thanks so much in advance!