This is my first post, I have been on here reading so many posts and all of you are so great I knew this was just the place I needed to come for help.
My DS is three months old, he is my first baby. Before I had him I had made up my mind not to vaccinate, but then at 2 weeks he got RSV and we found ourselves in the emergency room a few time. He did recover well, lots of cuddles and BF. So I guess now I am a bit unsure of what I want to do because that was so scary. It was just hard seeing him poked and prodded by all those doctors.
We have not done any vaccinations yet, and I feel like I am making the right choice. Even if I decide to do some I want to make sure that I am 100% happy with whatever choice that I make. So that means more research.
I guess what I need help with is finding my sanity!! Honestly before I had DS I was a completely rational person, reasonable and didn't worry too much. Well now I am finding that I don't want to go out, I don't want people to visit all because I am scared of DS getting sick, I don't know what is wrong with me.
I was a nanny before I had him, I nannied triplets, these triplets are coming over for a visit tommorow. The family wants to meet DS, honestly I feel sick about it. I am so worried he will contract something. I am constantly thinking about Hib specifically, cause that is the one vaccine I am still unsure about.
DH wants to go visit his great grandma and I won't even do that because I am terrified that she will give him something. This worry and craziness is taking over, I just want to enjoy my new baby and not worry so much. How did you not vaccinate, delay vaccinating or selectivel vaccinate and then stop worrying about it? I appreciate any advice, I feel sad and overwhelmed that I am unable to deal with this. I want to be strong in my decison, I was throughout my pregnancy and my labor. I refused any and all drugs at the hospital and didn't let them cut the cord till it was done pulsing, never let them put that stuff in his eyes, etc. I knew exactely what I wanted - why don't I know now??
Thanks : )