i am still on the fence, but am really leaning towards finding out. i didn't find out the last two times (and i guessed wrong both times, so it really was a surprise!) i really didn't want to know last time, and i had no problems waiting until the birth, but this time i find myself REALLY wanting to know. BF says he doesn't mind either way, so it's up to me I guess.
i've felt differently this pregnancy, mostly because of my recent loss, and the scares i've had with this one. i think it would really help me enjoy the pregnancy more if i know a bit more about who is actually in there, lol. i think it would help me bond more with the baby, something i've almost been scared to do so far. i have one girl and one boy already, so i would be happy with either. i didn't have an issue the last times with buying gender neutral, but every time i look at baby clothes this time, i end up not getting anything because i don't know what to buy! everything is just so different this pregnancy! i loved the surprise at birth, but i think for something "different" it would be cool to know beforehand. so that's probably what i'll do...but i just don't know. lol