I'm Kathleen, and my fiance and I found out we were pregnant six weeks ago. I've spent the time since then being cautiously optimistic (I've had pregnancy loss before), and trying to believe this is really happening. I have two other children from a previous marriage, the younger one eight years old. I never believed I would have another child.
We're both really happy to be doing this, though, even if it is super fast and surreal (I've only been with Michael for six months -- we got engaged after just three months together). We have our first appointment with a birth center midwife on Monday, and we're both dying to hear the heartbeat.
I've been a moderate natural-style parent since my boys were born, and we're trying some more crunchy things this time around (like cloth diapering, and I still have no idea of how that works). Michael will be leaving his job to stay home with the baby, because I have a good job that I enjoy (and I honestly got my fill of being the stay-at-home caregiver when my boys were babies).
So, for the time being, I'm walking around feeling MUCH bigger than I "should" be (I have an obviously pregnant shape already, just past 11 weeks), battling fatigue, and getting past the worst of the nausea. My head is spinning with changing our lives to accommodate a little baby (I kept none of my baby stuffs), and I feel enormous pressure to perform at work as if I'm not distracted and exhausted all of the time. At the same time I'm raising my two boys, planning our wedding (potluck in June!), and trying hard to make this blending and change as peaceful as possible.
Most of my friends are young and without children, so I'm hoping to find some more commonality and support here. I look forward to getting to know you all better!
~ Kathleen ~
Mom to Jonathan (8) and Josiah (10)
Due with number 3 in October