monkey: I'm really sorry about your grandfather. I liked what M_b_A said about how she thought of her FIL as having already met her babies and sending them on down to her. I don't know that you feel that way, or even want to feel that way, but it's a sweet thought. Thinking of you as you grieve.
kparker: I'm sorry about this cycle I, too, wonder what your RE meant when he said you were infertile? That seems an odd and insensitive thing to say. I'm glad you have your DH to lean on.
LTB: Ugh, sorry your DD is sad along with you. That sounds really rough. But I don't think you can second-guess yourself in how you respond to her. Sometimes things are just said, and it's only much later that you see a pattern. I think it's great that you're pointing out the benefits of being an only child to her, but I also think it's good that she knows you love babies and want to have more. Maybe, when she's older, she'll think back on that and realize how glad you are to have *her*. You sound like a very close mother-daughter duo. Which I think is cool.
And thanks, everyone, for the good wishes about my lap surgery. It went well, but I'm really freakin' sore. The RE removed all the endometriosis, some cysts, and tons of adhesions. He gave me a video of parts of the procedure, and all of the organs in my abdominal cavity were glued to each other and the walls of my body with scar tissue. I wonder what that was from. But now everything is swingin' freely. It was so weird to watch the procedure, but I'm glad I did. He apparently drilled my ovaries. He never even suggested he would do such a thing, and he didn't mention it after the surgery, but that sure does look like what he did. I don't know if I'm upset about it or not. I would have liked to research it before I had it done, you know? Now I'm a little nervous about finding out too much about it. Oh, he also did a hysteroscopy and the HSG thing, and at least one of my tubes is totally clear. I don't remember if he said both were, but I only noticed one dripping dye in the video. So I guess the procedure was a success. I got to keep both ovaries! I think Kyamo asked up-thread about my worries about losing my ovaries. Sometimes if endometriosis goes untreated for too long, the mess can't be cleaned up, cysts have invaded the ovaries, and ovarian tissue is responsible for endometriosis. From what I understand, if there is no longer ovarian tissue, there will be no endometriosis. Anyway, sorry for rambling. I'm still a little dizzy and stupid. Oh, anyone else have a malfunctioning bladder after a lap? Mine seems to be working strangely.