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post #141 of 205
kparker - Thanks for the detail to your situation and why your RE said what he/she did. Sorry that things are working out that way right now. I'm hoping this last cycle will do the trick!

kinza - Glad to hear your surgery went well and you still have ovaries!
post #142 of 205

Yeah, I just, I dunno this year is turning out to be such rubbish for my family. I want to scream and scream and rage and be angry but then my neighbours might call the cops lol

post #143 of 205
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Yeah, I just, I dunno this year is turning out to be such rubbish for my family. I want to scream and scream and rage and be angry but then my neighbours might call the cops lol


I know that feeling well... I hope things get better for you soon.
post #144 of 205
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Yeah, I just, I dunno this year is turning out to be such rubbish for my family. I want to scream and scream and rage and be angry but then my neighbours might call the cops lol


I hear this honey! I actually thought this year was going to be "MY" year, that it was going to be awesome from the get-go..because last year was horrible, and so far, this year is pretty bad too.

 

Thanks for sharing all the detail about your appt. I really hope a little break will be exactly what you need after the HSG. I am also so sorry about your dog. That must be really difficult.

 

 

 

post #145 of 205

Kinza -so glad your surgery went well!!!  Sounds like it was a total success. So happy for you!

I've never heard of drilling ovaries? But I do know googling stuff like that for me is pretty evil..

 

LTB- I'm just not ready for the mamas of onlies thread yet. I just can't bring myself to go there. I think it is great you have made some peace with that idea, but I am just not so not there. I've been at it for almost 2 years now..but I still feel like I have plenty of hope and that it can still happen for us. I try really hard not to influence my son's feelings about babies. He does really love them and really ask for a baby all on his own, and has been doing that for a very long time. Really, as soon as he could express himself well enough to ask. So that is hard. But I try to never show disappointment or sadness. But I do say things like "that would be fun" because it's true. And I don't think there's anything wrong with that. I don't know how long I will be able to hide this sadness from him though. On one hand I feel that if he is my only child, he will still be more than enough. But that doesn't mean that I don't want more children, desperately.. partly because he IS so wonderful and amazing. Maybe I will feel differently when my child is 6 like your DD..he is about to be 4 in July, which I can hardly fathom! Anyway, thanks for sharing all your thoughts and feelings. I don't know about your DD, but I think that my DS would be really sad if babies were coming and going at our house. He is not great with major changes.

 

AFM, spotting and temp drop today..AF will be here full force tomorrow I'm sure. My mom is also coming tomorrow to help with the move. I need lots of prayers and thoughts for this move. We are downsizing in a huge way, and I hurt my knee yesterday and it is really slow going on the packing. Also, DH couldn't get any time off work for moving. Blah! I'm too busy with the move to get super depressed over AF. I guess that is the only plus.

 

 

 

 

post #146 of 205
Nothing new to post really. I haven't been around because of a bombardment of people wanting to yell at me lately, for anything and everything. Even my most horrible ex decided to jump in there and pick at me, and he really should know better. He doesn't get to criticize me, certainly after we've been broken up for three years and I'm married now, after he was critical of every single thing I did when we were "together" (specifically, the 10 months or so that he lived with me at my parent's house after we broke up because he was lazy and wouldn't just go get a job and we didn't feel good about kicking him to the curb) . Dude doesn't know how to open his mouth without hurting someone's feelings, which wouldn't even be all that bad, if he knew how to care when he does.

So I'm avoiding the internet. I have a terrible case of eye strain and mental overload and it has come to my attention I can't sleep for more than 6 hours and my head hurts and/or I get super emotional every time I look at Facebook. If you guys don't see me on here for a while, that would be why.

Anyway, the reason I did want to post is I was wondering what you guys can tell me about luteal phase defect? I don't know yet because my last cycle was weird from my body getting adjusted to the Vitex, but I'm waiting to see what this cycle is going to look like (this is how it looks so far http://www.fertilityfriend.com/home/329153 I'm kind of starting to figure out charting) and was curious about it. I just heard of it like yesterday. Anything I should know if I do have it?

Also, DH and I went out to eat today, and I was just about to starting talking to him about how long we want to try to get preg before we start looking into adoption (I've been a bit down about it the past few days), when we both got interesting fortune cookies. I'm ridiculously superstitious, but it stuck out to my husband as well, who isn't.

http://i191.photobucket.com/albums/z203/lofnmusic/DSC00830.jpg

I know it's stupid, but it made me feel a lot better about everything for a bit. I will bring them joy and they will delight DH...I don't know, we did just start hanging out with a really nice couple recently, but she's been off and on on bed rest and not terribly likely to visit us. The timing was what really interested me, I was JUST thinking about giving up on TTC when we got them.
Edited by objet_trouve - 4/22/11 at 4:32am
post #147 of 205
So sorry about your doggy kparker! I had to take week off work a few years back when one of my doggies died. She was 13.
Actually, my username was her name - milkshake.

It's such a difficult thing, especially for people in our position IMO.

We're on holidays interstate at the moment, and my boy is staying at my parents place.
I cannot wait to go back on Sunday to see him. I honestly feel like a part of me is missing when I'm away from him.
A lot of people disregard my love for my dog as silly, and although he is ' our baby ', I don't think of him like a child substitute.
He is an integral part of our family though, he has provided both of us with a lot of comfort in the last two years.
post #148 of 205
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Also, DH and I went out to eat today, and I was just about to starting talking to him about how long we want to try to get preg before we start looking into adoption (I've been a bit down about it the past few days), when we both got interesting fortune cookies. I'm ridiculously superstitious, but it stuck out to my husband as well, who isn't.

http://i191.photobucket.com/albums/z203/lofnmusic/DSC00830.jpg

I know it's stupid, but it made me feel a lot better about everything for a bit. I will bring them joy and they will delight DH...I don't know, we did just start hanging out with a really nice couple recently, but she's been off and on on bed rest and not terribly likely to visit us. The timing was what really interested me, I was JUST thinking about giving up on TTC when we got them.

That's funny that you mentioned fortune cookies. I don't believe in them really, but I got a good one Sunday that I'm carrying with me in my wallet. It says, "A new relationship is about to blossom. You will be blessed."
post #149 of 205

Lillmom- Sorry about AF.... Good luck with the move

 

Lava- I wish you good luck monday - isn't ur apt then?

 

Kinza- Glad everything went well. I had the same surgery in 2008 and the I had the ectopic pregnancy last year and they said everything looked amamzing clear still! There is hope and diet does help, Endometerosis and Gluten have been linked, by avoiding it I think I have been able to keep the stuff from reproducing and effecting me. It's worth a shot, it was a big life style change but it was worth it, I feel so good, I don't have nearly as bad cramps as I did before... pregnancy is coming hopefully soon... I knew it would not be easy but I can do this! Alot of women find that after that Clean out they get prego right away... i wished that I had started trying right after mine but we wanted to wait another year...(if I knew then what I know now! I would have started trying 10 years ago!) Any ways hang in there. The bladder thing, my seemed fine afterwards, but I did knowest a delay and slower peeing but call your DR if it stays beyond 2 days, they could be the meds wearing off. I felt great in a week and even better in a month! You will feel like a new woman! As soon as they say go for it do!! Good luck and if you have any questions PM me I've been dealing with this for years.

 

Everyone Good luck in their next cycles!!!

 

AFM- DPO count did not start, infact we had been just playing these past few days - here I am thinking that my time had past and we were not worrying about it... then my temp droped after I started my Antibiotics & Mucinex... apparently I just had a fever! So we have really been trying these past few days and didn't know it! So now just conituing that! My cycles are so nutty who knows but I just thought that was kind of neat.

 

Signing off - Good luck ladies!

 

post #150 of 205

Sooo... my 12 mm follicle has grown to 18 mm. 2 mm too small for trigger today. Fortunately/unfortunately, we're headed out for my grandfather's funeral tomorrow and won't be back until Thursday. Fortunate, because it means they can't suggest we come in for another $300 ultrasound. Unfortunate, because it means we're going to be relying on OPKs to time intercourse, and we're going to be traveling and staying with relatives, which could make BD a little difficult. Luckily, we're staying with my mom's parents (it's my dad's dad that passed away), and they have a fairly private, basement bedroom that will be ours... so hopefully we can work things out. ;)

 

The nurse also said that if I don't get a positive OPK after 2-3 days, they'll probably want me to give myself the trigger shot anyway. I was really looking forward to having them give me the shot, but I think I have some relatives that are experienced with shot-giving, so maybe someone else can do it for me. (My uncle is a nurse, so he should certainly know, but I'm not relishing the thought of him giving it to me in the backside. I'm hoping one of my female cousins can do it.)

 

Anyway, sorry there has been so much sadness going on around here. Hopefully May will have some HPTs flowering for us!

post #151 of 205

Hugs to everyone having a hard time. grouphug.gif

 

My little bit of good news is I got a + OPK today (CD14), which means I'm having a normal cycle finally! I don't know if it will last, but I'm hoping. The only thing I've been doing differently is a 1/2 hour pilates workout ~5x week. Maybe it's helped, or maybe it's nothing.

 

In any case, I am feeling optimistic for the first time in awhile because I got pregnant back when my cycles were normal. Maybe I've been releasing bad eggs all this time or my hormones were out of sync, and now this cycle I'll have a real chance to conceive? Well, I'm hoping anyway.

post #152 of 205

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Edited by miriam_bat_avraham - 4/21/13 at 6:58pm
post #153 of 205
I updated my chart today and it changed my O date from CD10 to CD14 (and from the dotted line to the solid one), which means I ovulated while DH had such terrible back problems that we weren't able to do anything. I'm glad the line is solid now, but I'm really confused by the chart constantly changing my O date (this is the third date it's given me now), and annoyed that we weren't able to take advantage of this cycle.
post #154 of 205

objet - I don't know how FF works, but have you read Taking Charge of Your Fertility? If not, I would definitely recommend it, since the author tells you how to figure out your O date based on your fertility signs. It seems like I see a lot of people complaining about FF changing its mind a lot about O. For me, I'd rather do the interpreting myself than wonder what the heck the computer is thinking. Just a thought.

 

MBA - What size of needle did you use for hCG injections? The one I have is 25 1/2 gauge, and it still looks pretty wicked to me. Maybe it's partially because it's so long? I mean, I've worked with 18 gauge needles in the lab, so I know they get a lot bigger, but still... this is not like a nice 28 gauge subcutaneous needle.

 

AFM, did I mention dh gave me his cold? And that I totally forgot to ask at the doctor's office if it's okay to take anything for it? I'm so afraid of screwing things up that I'm not willing to take any chances. I probably wouldn't even if the doctor said it was okay. Luckily it hasn't been too awful yet, but... bleh. Do not need this!

post #155 of 205

Okay, I just watched the official Novarel video about how to give yourself an injection. NO FREAKING WAY I CAN DO THAT TO MYSELF! NO.FREAKING.WAY. I cannot use a quick, dart-like motion to stick an inch-and-a-half long needle in myself. Noooooooooo way. I'm going to be praying hard to get a +OPK today or tomorrow!

post #156 of 205
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objet - Sorry you missed the window.  

 

monkey - I hope you get the +OPK.  I don't find the shot scary at all when someone else does it, but I agree, it would be really scary to do it on myself.   

 

AFM - Another BFN this morning 14DPO, so I'm out.  

post #157 of 205

Kyamo - Sorry this was not your month. :( I was really hoping the Femara would be the magic bullet for you. Do you think you'll try it again, or move on to something else?

post #158 of 205
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Kyamo - Sorry this was not your month. :( I was really hoping the Femara would be the magic bullet for you. Do you think you'll try it again, or move on to something else?



Yeah, I'll try it again.  My lining WAS better on it, so its certainly possible that its still the key for me, and this was just bad luck.  However, the longer this goes on, the more I wonder whether there might be more issues I don't know about.  When we first saw a doctor for fertility, we did all the tests, found tubes clear, good sperm, lack of ovulation due to PCOS.  But, they've had me ovulating successfully since June last year... so I dunno.   

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objet - I don't know how FF works, but have you read Taking Charge of Your Fertility? If not, I would definitely recommend it, since the author tells you how to figure out your O date based on your fertility signs. It seems like I see a lot of people complaining about FF changing its mind a lot about O. For me, I'd rather do the interpreting myself than wonder what the heck the computer is thinking. Just a thought.

 
Yes! FF just changed my ovulation to the wrong day. Even though I enjoy online charting, I trust myself much more than FF. I have charted for a long time (like a good part of 8 years or so) and still notice new things: my breasts start to hurt even before the temp goes up. They also get bigger and heavier than at any other time. Then, a couple of days before af they all of a sudden deflate. Interesting stuff to me. BTW, I did not have very sore breasts when I got pregnant with dd, so it is interesting how it is a pregnancy sign for some but not for everyone.
 
MBA... How did I miss that you are having twins????????? Congratulations!! (Or did I know this? My memory is truly awful.)
 
lilmom... I do understand about the onlies thread. I am sure I had seen it before and did not want to read. I do wish, in a sense, I could see things as many of the ladies in that thread do... I will never be able to. I love babies and the time with them, and many of the women on that thread had not enjoyed themselved until the kids had got older. It was also very difficult to read how determined some people were to never have more children (written earlier) and then to see another child in the sig. But, all in all, it did give me some new thoughts. Mainly, although I would never have chosen our situation, I can still try to enjoy the benefits. (Mainly, financial, although also other stuff, like more time for everyone, you know. None very important to me, but still benefits.)
 
AFM: I had an interesting chat with the mom of a friend yesterday. She used to be a social worker in Canada, doing adoption work. It just felt good to get to talk with someone who knows so much about it all.
I am still doing better than ever before with the idea of having an only. Not my first choice, but that's just it: not my choice. I am 12 dpo and have tested, and finally the negative tests have become just another thing in my day, at least right now. I am well aware of how the emotions come and go. It is rough, though, that there are two families in our tiny chapel, each with 3 kids younger than our dd, including a newborn. I am happy for them, but it is not like I can be emotionless about it all, either. There is also a lady there who is pregnant, although I had thought she was too old to have more kids. Sometimes it really feels like the pregnancies around me mock me... Basically, "even so and so can get pregnant, even though it did not seem likely. Yet, I cannot." But, that is just how it is. We have each other and an amazing child and I refuse to let infertility take any more years away from being fully present for her.
post #160 of 205
FF just changed it BACK to CD 10. Cuss.gif It also went back to the dotted line. I'm so confused.

Lots of people had told me to buy that book, I only hadn't because lots of people tell me to buy lots of books and I have to be picky so I don't fill the house full of books I'll never get around to reading. smile.gif After this change in my chart though, I think I will. FF doesn't seem terribly reliable for interpretation anymore.

EDIT: OK, book ordered. It's coming from Phoenix so it shouldn't take terribly long.

LTB- I'm still trying to figure it out, but I don't seem to get O symptoms unless I'm on Clomid. Then I get cramps so bad it's hard to have sex. Part of why I love Vitex now is because I don't get a whole lot of symptoms, my hips get a tiny bit wider and I feel more attractive. If I had a lower sex drive, I'd probably notice an increase there, but it's so high all the time that I don't really notice. My breasts tend to be pretty sensitive too, so it's hard to tell.
Edited by objet_trouve - 4/24/11 at 5:07am
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