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post #61 of 205
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LTB - I'm sorry you can't see the photo of the little boy anymore. I hope you saved it on your harddrive? My sister just gave me a big box of royal bee jelly, and I was going to start with it as soon as I was done taking my Optivite (it's a massive B vitamin that's supposed to help with unexplained infertility). I've got about a month left or so. Looking forward to the royal jelly from what you say. Though my sister gave it to me because she thought it tasted disgusting. 

 

Thank you. :) I do have 7 photos of him, saved. It is just that now others can't see him and fall in love and give him a home.

 

I just realized that I have also been taking beta carotene that same amount of time. While the jelly is supposed to balance hormones, carrots are used to increase mucus. Thus it may be that it is not the royal jelly helping in this, afterall.

 

AFM, I'm at 10 dpo, which is when I would have started testing about a year ago. I stopped taking hpts last summer. It was just such a waste of money, and made my stomach sink each time in such an unpleasant way when that chalk-white space refused to pinken up. Getting AF is definitely easier now than it was 6 months ago, I'm thankful for that. But I think it's a comes-in-waves kind of thing. May be easier at this moment, but what about when I get closer to 40? 45? 

 

Bolded your sentence there. I totally agree with that. I had bad pms a couple of weeks ago (not realizing that was it) and I felt really depressed. And this, even though I actually feel like I have accepted the situation. The emotions really do fluctuate due to situations, hormones, so many different things... and because of time and insight. I often do think of the future, also. How will it be when I am 50? When other people start to have grandkids, that sort of thing. Of course we do have a child, but many of our friends will likely have a lot of grandkids. It is like this pain will never go away and there will always be reminders everywhere. I don't know the answer, but I hope and now, finally, think it is possible to totally come to terms with the pain. I am doing so much better right now than I was a year or two ago, even though I had hope, then. (I was waiting to TTC, newly on thyroid meds, etc., so thought that would fix me.) Right now my biggest pain is feeling so stuck. If we could do something towards adopting, it would be just wonderful. As it is, we are not able to.

 

2.5 months until our doctor's appointment. I will go because I feel it has to be done. However, I have zero enthusiam. We have tried for 3 years or so and I am tired of it. I just want to fly and bring home the child meant for us. It is just that I don't know that there is one meant for us. The little guy I have fallen in love with is so meant for us, in my heart, but rationally I must accept that I am nuts. We are not allowed to adopt him, and that's it. Yet, my heart keeps looking for the what ifs. There IS a reason they say not to fall in love with a child until you have a home study done and you are ready to adopt. I am living proof... hah.    


Aren't Emay and I considerate.. We keep this place going so the rest of you can sleep. :) Well, except for Monkeyscience who is nice enough to be up at 4 to keep us company. ;)

 

post #62 of 205
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On a happy note, dh told me last night (after emailing me at work about going out to dinner and scaring me by saying "other things happened that I'll tell you about when we're together") that he got a $1000 scholarship! Since this is his last semester and we've already paid for school, that means it gets refunded as cash. biggrinbounce.gif


Awesome!!
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Everyone: can we see a +HPT in here sometime soon please? I'm having to read other threads to get my kick - living vicariously through those photos of two lines. And it's just not the same when they're a dime a dozen in the other thread with ladies who have been trying for - horrors - three cycles; not the same as seeing it happen to someone who has been struggling for a while here. I'm still a little high from MBA, but that was like weeks ago, when I was still lurking.

 


Maybe... I took my temp this morning (CD 29) and it was 99. I'm out of HPTs, but I do have some OPKs. I know, I know... But still, the test line was darker than the control line! So, I'm heading to the drug store soon. Will keep you posted.

I started nights this week. The first night wasn't too bad, but then Thursday night I worked plus I had a class at work for another 4 hours yesterday morning just when the Thursday night shift ended. I was SO tired yesterday. They called and asked if I would be on call last night, and like a sucker I said yes. Thankfully they didn't call. I suppose my temp could just be screwed up from the weird sleeping...
post #63 of 205
Oh, BSLadies!! I just got back from the drug store, peed on a HPT, and instantly two nice pink lines! No waiting, squinting, or over-analyzing necessary. Definitely pos.gif!!

I have a doctor's appointment on the 19th. Need to call and get it changed ASAP. I don't want to lose this baby waiting for a doctor's appointment.
post #64 of 205
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Oh, BSLadies!! I just got back from the drug store, peed on a HPT, and instantly two nice pink lines! No waiting, squinting, or over-analyzing necessary. Definitely pos.gif!!

I have a doctor's appointment on the 19th. Need to call and get it changed ASAP. I don't want to lose this baby waiting for a doctor's appointment.


YES!!!!!!!! joy.gif

 

Thinking and praying sticky thoughts your way, lava!! (Geez, emaya... do you always get what you want??) winky.gif

post #65 of 205

Lavatea! goodvibes.gif

 

Kyamo, hope your IUI went well.

post #66 of 205

Lavatea! Wonderful, wonderful news!!!!!! I will keep you and the little one in my prayers.

post #67 of 205

Now THAT'S what I'm talking about! What fantastic news, Lavatea!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My heart is so warm for you. Let us know when you get a sooner appointment so we can cheer you on.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

monkeyscience: um no, not generally. but maybe I hadn't found my forum for wish granting before now? Maybe BSL is my direct link? So.... at risk of sounding greedy..... can we see some more BFP in here please?

post #68 of 205
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Congratulations Lavatea!  joy.gif joy.gif joy.gif  I am sending you sticky vibes!
 

 

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Kyamo - I don't know how thick lining is supposed to be, but that sounds gloriously cushy! Sounds like a thick soft velvety plushy cozy place for a little one to set up shop for 9 months.

 

 

 

orngbiggrin.gif  I love the way you worded that!

 

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Kyamo, hope your IUI went well.


Procedure went fine, but I guess the real answer won't be known for 2ish weeks, heh.  

 

post #69 of 205
Lava!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please stick this time!!!

Xoxoxoxo (to you and the little bean)
post #70 of 205

LAVA CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!  So so so so so so happy for you!!!!

 

Emaya...thanks for the second BFP request!!!

post #71 of 205

Lavatea!!!!! joy.gifjoy.gifjoy.gifI'm rooting for this one to be a sticky one too!!! Woo hooo!!! Soooo exciting!

 

Emaya - I hope that your wishes keep coming true because I want everyone to get their BFP!!!

 

AFM, I think I may have O'ed already! If so, I think it might have been well timed and I am quite happy at the thought that I might have actually O'ed just a week later than most people do. That would be amazing! I'll keep you posted.

 

Kyamo - I think you might be next! Long two weeks for you ahead, I know.

 

LTB -hang in there friend. How disappointing to see the little boy's picture removed.

post #72 of 205
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Originally Posted by LessTraveledBy View Post

Aren't Emay and I considerate.. We keep this place going so the rest of you can sleep. :) Well, except for Monkeyscience who is nice enough to be up at 4 to keep us company. ;)

 

Can't help you there because I'm in a whole other timezone!  I think normally when I'm here it's the middle of the night there.



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Originally Posted by lavatea View Post

Oh, BSLadies!! I just got back from the drug store, peed on a HPT, and instantly two nice pink lines! No waiting, squinting, or over-analyzing necessary. Definitely pos.gif!!

I have a doctor's appointment on the 19th. Need to call and get it changed ASAP. I don't want to lose this baby waiting for a doctor's appointment.

Congrats... great news joy.gif
 

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Originally Posted by Emaya View Post

monkeyscience: um no, not generally. but maybe I hadn't found my forum for wish granting before now? Maybe BSL is my direct link? So.... at risk of sounding greedy..... can we see some more BFP in here please?

Work with it Emaya - sounds good to me!
 

AFM: busy busy here.  Off on holidays in three days.  Looking forward to it - lots of catching up with friends.  Not looking forward to Easter so much, it's a real "family" time. 

I'd be due to test just before we go, but I don't think this is my month.  I hate that I'll get AF while we're away though - because I know I'll be a miserable bitch. 
 

 

post #73 of 205
Congrats Lava!
post #74 of 205

Congrats Lava! Good luck Kyamo!

post #75 of 205

Kyamo, we'll be counting off the days of your 2ww right along with you!

 

So I think I saw a bit of very light brown on the toilet paper this morning... 11 dpo is a bit early for me to start spotting. I'm almost always 13 to 14 days before first spotting, and then like 16 days until true red blood and cd1. I hope that progesterone I took two cycles back didn't mess with the good lp I had going (though granted, a LP can be as pretty and long as you like with still no baby in sight apparently!). I'd be happy to delude myself with implantation spotting dreams, but 11 dpo is a bit too late for that.

post #76 of 205
Congrats Lavatea!!! joy.gif Warm wishes for a sticky bean <3
post #77 of 205

 So I really hope that you all get a kick out of my crazy morning that was concluded by 8:15.... it was a hour, but it felt like a day!

 

So… I get to the Hospital at 7:15 for my Apt, I arrive a the door way to the long hallway to Radiology which I met by a Guard, who says “Oh you’re going to need to go around this entrance is blocked for some reason “ Okay… I know my way around the hospital but it’s changed a lot, but luckily I nice young Dr looks at me and smiles and says: “I’m heading that way! Come with me.”So I follow her and she’s very nice shows me the way. We get down to the basement and find water all over the floor… Boiler broke and water was everywhere and all the people trying to clean it up…. I look at the all women at the check in desk who are anxiously waiting for people to come in to find out that they cannot be X-rayed… I walk over to them - tell them I'm here for my apt... and they tell me it’s unsafe and they will be rescheduling the procedure for a later date… I burst into tears…I start mumbling something about this is the last day to do this test, which is was, and I'd have to wait to try until next month... They all were so nice and clamed me down, I felt terrible that I started to cry but I’ve been through so much to have this now happen on top of it…They tell me it’s going to be okay and they just call my Dr and see what to do! Well they call Dr S and he say why not the South Campus. They don’t have the tools set up for the procedure so they give me a wrapped bag with all the tools…. Again, they are so nice at the South campus apologizing for the delay and they seem to be stalling, they put me in a special waiting area away from everyone else and they the women pulls me into X-ray the room…. Dr S is there and she looks at me and says… : “apparently they were servicing this machine yesterday and they forgot to finish…..”  So yet another machine down in 2 different cities! Can you believe it? Seriously… Is it a sign? My Dr was pretty blow away too… I mean what are the chances…. But he said he’ll see me in at 7:15 tomorrow morning… he said one more day  is fine because I have such long cycles ( normally they schedule between day 5 and 11 and I was on day 11 today....!), I won't ovulate for at least CD 19-24 anyways....

 

 

LAVA- CONGRATS!! BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

KAYMO - crossing everthing for you...

 

MILK- Maybe AF won't come and you have a surprize Easter Egg your belly.....!!!! but you have  FULL premission to be a bitch, I cannot stand my other side some times and if it's your AF fire away at will, they prob deserve it!!! haha!

 

EM- Brown mean old blood, how many dpo are you....  By the way it was 60 on the east coast this weekend but I was sick inside all weekend long... missed the great back yard cleaning weather.... Cannot wait for more...

post #78 of 205
GreenMum - What an awful ordeal! Hope things are much smoother tomorrow. Glad your doc was understanding and flexible.


I got an appointment for Wed morning. I'll be seeing a nurse (NP??) for complete history and prenatal lab work. I know it's only two days but I'm so nervous.

They also wanted to keep my appointment for the 19th. Not sure why, but hopefully it's a good sign. Maybe I'll get to see the actual doctor on that day.
post #79 of 205

Congratulations Lavatea! Sending lots of sticky baby dust!

 

Greenmum - that sounds awful. I have a hard time keeping my cool in situations like that, I probably would have said something highly regrettable. Good on you for just crying winky.gif

post #80 of 205

Oh GreenMum!!! That sounds just awful. But I am so glad you are still getting to see the doc again in the morning! Hopefully it will go smoothly!
 

Lava- hang in there! I hope those 2 days just fly by!

 

AFM, 6 dpo..I don't feel that positive about my timing on this one, but still, just am thrilled to be so far along in the cycle already! Now, even if I didn't catch my eggie, at least I know this won't be a horrible cycle like last time. I will take any kind of good news at this point. Haha!

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