Hi ladies, this is my first chat post. I sware the time is slipping away. I can't believe how close it is getting. I have put off so much that I usually have done already. Yesterday was the first time I went through all my old baby clothes and seperated boys from girls and gotten it all put away and ready for new baby. I usually get excited before this point and do it. I also haven't ordered my birth supplies yet. There are only 4 or 5 things I need though such as a mattress bag, footprinter, chux pads, and a cord ring. The rest I am getting locally like OB pads, trashbags, ziploc bag for placenta, gathering old towels, etc. I also still have stuff from last birth I never used such as the iodine scrub and such. They just came with the kit I got but come to think of it, we never used anything like that in any of my homebirths.
The one thing I never had enough of was clean towels, lol. I will be more prepared this time.
I have reached that stage where I am just anxious for it to be over and her to be here already. However, last night, out of no where, I had a strange flashback of the actual pain of labor for a split second. Isn't it weird that is the first thing we forget, how bad it hurts? AFter that memory, I thought for the first time this pregnancy, "wow, maybe I am not quite ready after all, we can wait a little longer", hahaha.
DH was laid off from work last time so I didn't have to worry about him being there for the birth. This time though he works an hour away and will either be on afternoons or midnights. He says it wont be a prob, just call and they will get the message to him right away away and he can be here in like an hour and a half, or less. I guess I just keep getting this feeling like he wont be here this time. My dream birth goes something like this: Me being alone, just waking up in labor, it not really hurting but very intense, no time to call midwife or anyone else, I just instinctively do what my body needs and catch my own baby, maybe in the tub or wherever. Then I call midwife, dh, my mom, and everyone comes and helps with the clean up and checks us over.
Not sure if when it came down to it that is what I would really want. I mean, in actual labor, maybe I wouldnt want to be alone at all but be glad the midwife was there. I remember last time just breathing this sign of relief when she finally got there though she did nothing but sit next to me during my very short labor.
I suppose whatever is meant to be will be.
On a different note, its like I gained 20 lbs overnight! Went from feeling generally pregnant and nothing fitting right so I stayed in my pjs a lot to feeling HUGE and my pjs even being tight now and everything rolls down my belly, even my maternity pants. I am a house! Also darn hemmorroids flared after no probs all pregnancy.
I have a little ticker on my homepage tracking how many days till due date and how many till full term. I cant believe its only 37 days till I am 37 weeks! How did that happen!?
Is it sneaking up on anyone else or dragging for you guys?