feel better soon!
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I've been in and out of the hospital for the past couple of days. Had the scariest experience of my life (and I've been through a LOT in my life) on Friday. I had a massive and sudden asthma (?) attack. I put the question mark because although it felt like asthma in the beginning, it exploded into quick gasping trying to breathe. I took 3 puffs of my albuterol which helped a little (so that I didn't feel the need for an ambulance) but I knew I needed to go to the ER. I couldn't even really talk much, the breath just wasn't there.
They gave me a triple breathing treatment (nebulizer with meds plus oxygen). Will be putting a photo of it on my blog.)
Also gave me prednisone. I was in the hospital for almost 4 hours.
Got a prescription for prednisone to take at home.
Saturday morning, I took the prednisone and 45 minutes later, my face turned deep red and my lips were outlined with brick red/almost purple. My head hurt BADLY. I called my regular doc office (urgent care) but she wouldn't even consider seeing me there. Told me to go back to the ER and that it could be a reaction to the prednisone.
Went back to ER and got a room right away. My temp was up a little and I explained my symptoms. I told them that I actually told the nurse from my regular doc office that I think I just have a sinus infection or some other illness. When the ER doc finally came in and examined me, he agreed that he thinks I have a sinus infection. The red face/lips could be an adverse reaction to the prednisone but he didn't think it is an actual allergic reaction. He told me to stop taking the prednisone unless my breathing gets bad again. He gave me antibiotics (z pack) just in case. He said that it can also help with lung problems just in case something is brewing there (that didn't show up on xray yet) that could have caused the asthma attack.
They also gave me a heavy duty dose of benedryl and it knocked me right out!
I'm tired today and my breathing isn't perfect, but I'm alive. Alive is good.
My poor son was so incredibly scared (his dumb father brought him into the living room when I was having the massive asthma attack.) He thought I was dying. He kept saying that he had to be with me and protect me. It broke my heart. I felt so bad that he had to see that. It made me cry. I tried to control my breathing as best as I could and explained to him that he needs to stay with his grammy (my mom) while I go to the hospital to get medicine. I told him that his father would call him from the hospital to give him updates on me. He finally calmed down.
And, during this whole crappy weekend, I found out that my good health insurance has been cancelled (pharmacist told Roo's father when he was filling my prescription). No notice, nothing. No explanation. I have back up insurance but have no idea if it covers the ER, etc. Of course, they're not open on weekends so I won't get answers until Monday. Argh!
Thankfully, today is a lovely day (weather wise) and Roo and I sat outside for a couple hours. We did a short egg hunt and drank ice water. Simple and relaxing. I did manage to clean out my car a bit, so at least I got something done this weekend. My son said that the weather reminds him of how badly he wants us to be able to take a mini vacation this summer (details on my blog). I just don't think I can come up with the money for it. I really want to create some happy memories with him. This health scare has made me realize that I can't keep putting things off like this.
I don't have good memories of spending time with my own mom (when I was a child) and I don't want that to happen with my own child. He's had such a nightmare of a school year, he deserves some carefree, happy times.
Cari- I've missed you!
Aeress- Feel better soon!
Clay- You have no idea how thrilled I am for you and your family!
Ouch! Hope you feel better and sort out the insurance mess and get what you and your son need, Dok!
Scott Card is especially interesting given that there aren't a lot of "big name/mainstream bookstore" authors with his religious background/convictions (Mormon and a very interstingly complex guy when it comes to hot button topics). There are a few of his short stories that I read as a young adult that still haunt me today (mostly from the Maps in the Mirror collection... huh, I'd forgotten he wrote Mikal's Songbird). Which books/series are you reading?
I forgot that Card wrote the Songmaster stories/novel - I bought a first edition of that book in 1980 when I was just starting to buy sf and fantasy. I wonder if I still have it?
My dd has read the Alvin Maker series and read Ender's Game years ago. I recommended Pastwatch (my fave Card novel, one of my fave novels, a stand alone) and she's working her way through the Ender sequels right now. She has all the Children of Earth series from the library, which is the most religious for sure - I'm not sure how/if she'll like those.
Interestingly complex really says it all about Card. I am enjoying how he portrayed Ender's parents as very intelligent religious dissidents trying to survive and raise their family in a post-religious world, realizing that their children are secular now no matter what (Shadow of the Hegemon, mostly.)
Stephanie Meyer, who wrote Twilight, went to Brigham Young University. I can see the LDS themes in her work, though they are not nearly as, well, interestingly complex as in Card's work.
Off to family for dinner. Hope we can get a bit of a hike in by the creek, if it is not too muddy still.
What history did Torin make, Clay? DId I miss the theme of the event you went to?
Hello:) Sorry about the van and the poor little guy who broke his arm:( I am so glad about your new neighborhood! It's wonderful to live in a place that is so family friendly and your guys have friends close by:)
They won't drag. It's going to be an utter whirlwind, because DS leaves for his class trip the day before, so I've got uber packing to do, and our ex-roomie is going to pick DS up that Friday when he gets back, and I won't get back till after the weekend.
The letter-- I sent it. I've been rather down in the dumps most of the day over it. I hate that I feel that way, I hate that I felt compelled to write it, I hate that I had to send it. I hate that my Mom doesn't even know I felt that way, and I know she will be blindsided by the news of what I wrote in there. Which is another thing I hate, because I've felt that way for a LONG time, and we had a confrontation a couple years ago over a very similar situation. There have been smallish confrontations over the years, but only this time have I realized they're a constant theme. Each incident isn't isolated, like I guess I thought I'm just so sad. My mom doesn't like me. She loves me, very much, I know, and my son too, but she doesn't like us at all. We're an embarrassment and an inconvenience. It just really hurts.
(((hugs))) I wish our relationships with our parents could be wonderful. All the things I dreamed it would be when I was having my children. It is such a huge letdown when they don't work out. A nice extended family was all I thought about for a long time. Getting together for celebrations, having my children have a good relationship with their grandparents. It's a tough one. (((hugs)))
Feel better vibes heading your way.
DOK, Wow so scary for you and your DS. I am glad you are better.
That sounds like fun, but I understand about the meltdowns! Ours are different now that DS is 10, but I melt down in my own way. I'm fine in crowds, but I get done real quick and then I'm really cranky, and I have to have utter quiet, till I regroup. I can be on the computer, but I can't have music or radio or anybody talking to me. DS, on the other hand, just gets worse and louder and in my face. Lovely combination, huh?
Oh man, feel better.
DOK, yikes! How are you now?
Yeah-- I'm trying to be ultra vigilant about how I treat my son, expressly because of this. There's only me, my mom, and my brother, now, and we all live really far apart. I spent 2 hours on the phone with my brother today-- and the basic result of that is that he thinks she's been like that for a really, really long time, and I have to either sever my relationship (ill advised, and I agree) or practice acceptance that that's how she is. But I also can set boundaries and not go there to visit if I put myself in the lion's den every time. Sage advice, I think.
Morning everyone! SweetSunshine - those are beautiful pictures! DOK - oh my goodness! Such a scary time for Roo and I'm glad you are a bit better. I love your plan to create some carefree & happy moments for the 2 of you!!
Cari - missed ya! Glad to hear you are settling in nicely to the new place. Boohhiss about the van! I hope this new one treats your DH nicely :)
Clay - sounds like a fun day for all except for the tantrums...
Well with all the chat about books and religious themes, which I have apparently missed when reading many of them I'm feeling the need to go back and re-read many of those noted to see if I notice the themes this time around. Except the Twilight series... because reading that series for me is like gorging on creme brulee and cheap champagne. Ugh. Probably I should brush up on the various teachings to get a flavor of what to look for. But I must finish Game of Thrones again...before I pick up another book.
We had a nice low-key easter here... my parents made each kid a bag of goodies. It was filled with activity books, a kite, whistles and magnifying glasses and books about caring for the earth & yourself. We had a picnic and flew kites and just played in the sunshine and had a fun little egg hunt in the yard for the 2 of them. I am so happy they were not pushing anything else (they are both very relaxed catholics) and let me & DH control the amount of chocolate made available.
I hope everyone has a wonderful Monday!
history making- It was the "Great Diaper Change"... an attempt to set the Guiness Book World Record for most children changed into cloth diapers at the same moment. LOL 450 locations around the world, at the appropriate minutes hundreds upon hundreds of little bums up in the air and then dropped into cloth. A silly record, but fun, and one of the pictures from the event made the front page of the local paper (above the fold even) and I had to buy a copy becuase Torin is in it. :) I guess I'm now officially a "collecting mama" since I remember my own mom saving copies of papers that had my brother or I mentioned.
Moms- Maia, you might want to see if your library has a copy of Stop Walking on Eggshells: taking your life back when someone you care about has borderline personality disorder, Surviving a Borderline Parent; how to heal your childhood wounds & build trust, boundaries, and self-esteem, and Toxic Parents: overcoming their hurtful legacy and reclaiming your life. While you mom may not have bps, one of the key features of bps is the inability of the sufferer to "realize" their condition and an extreme reluctance to face the condition (more so than in other mental illnesses). Since this makes it REALLY hard to treat, most of the books (and especially the ones I've mentioned) deal primarily with how the adult children of these individuals can adapt their own lives/boundaries/beliefs/activities to the reality of "this person I love is like this and isn't really going to change". They sort of provide ideas for staying in contact with the person you care about while not letting that person write you into their stories. Anyway, the ideas may be applicable to your situation too, and the books are pretty common so most libraries should have them or be able to ILLIAD them.
Lotus infused wine? Neat! How did it taste? And what is it for? (other than to be yummy I mean, or is it just to be yummy?) I've had spiced wine and mulled wine and herbal wine but I don't think I've had a flower wine. Must try it once belly babe is earth-side. :)
I've read but don't remember everything... I'm pretty busy getting ready to go to work this week... Woah! That sounds so weird! In the last 20 years, I've been a student, a volonteer and I've worked a few days to help out in busy time back when DH was a store manager but I haven't got a real job... This is only for 3 months though... Exciting and scary a the same time.
DoK, hope you feel better and that the insurance will cover the ER! Hugs to you and your son!
Healing vibes to all dealing with illness!
Going back to planning and preparation... Will be juggling homeschooling and working...
I couldnt handle the Twilight series. I did read them 3 times lol, but thats because I kept thinking I was being too judgemental. I felt like they were very "preachy" and Bella, honestly, she drove me nuts.
Chronicles of Narnia...these were some of my favorites growing up. About 7 years ago or so I decided to reread them after knowing the Christian theme to them...honestly, I still really didnt feel it. I know technically its there, but as a child (who read them in catholic school with the most religious teacher facilitation the discussion) I didnt pick up on it at all so my children have the set. For me, the magic and wonder of it superceded everything else.
The lotus wine was incredible! So delicious! Lotus is a consciousness shifting plant, good for getting into a meditation or dream state. It was other benefits that are escaping my brain right now. You can make herbal wines and flower infused wines, YUMMMM!
She doesn't have any disorders. She's just...the ex-wife and mother of alcoholics. And very, very textbook Al-anon, but the only part of the program she's gotten, I'm afraid, is the "Me first now" part. The pendulum hasn't ever swung back to center. But I may check those out anyway; thanks for the ref!
Lioness- It must be both good to have a diagnosis, but at the same time, hard to grasp and understand. *hugs* Does the fibro just another layer or are you not considered to have fibro anymore? I hope the dietician can give you some good ideas, helping the kids make changes must be hard.
turns out we arent done either. DS now has ketosis going on. the doctor is now taking me seriously about this. i know we have some issue in regards to glucose or glycogen storage or hyperinsulinism or something. he eats enough for a person his size but it is not fueling him. so more tests.
DD1 on the other hand feels more solid now. she looks rounder too!
clay- yay for baby girls! and so cool you got to do the diaper thing. we were going to do it here but we had appts that day and couldnt make it to the meeting place.
maia- hope it works out with your mom. <hugs>
DoK I'm glad you're better.
Clay-I bet being apart of that was so exciting!
How is everyone? I do miss talking here. I have some exciting news I got today. I'm going to be published. After getting 25 no's, I finally got a yes. It's a 3 year contract and I can't tell you how happy I am. This is something I didn't think I could do. It'll go to ebook first and then it will go to print. It will be so great to go into a book store and see my work! It's still too good to be true.
I just tried to cancel my doc appointment but they wouldn't let me. Not only that, she told me to come at 10:30 instead of the original 2:00 appointment.
She said that if I'm coughing up brown phlegm (sorry, tmi), I must be seen. So I told her that when I called YESTERDAY for an appointment for the same reason, they told me to wait a day and that's why they scheduled it for today. I said if it was so important to be seen because of my symptoms, they should have seen me yesterday when I had plenty of time on my hands (and when my son wasn't limping around from some mysterious ankle pain.)
Aeress- I'm wishing you well, mama.
unschoolin- wow! congrats! That's great news!
maia- I didn't mean that your mom had any specific disorder, just that those books deal more or less exclusively with "how to cope when a person in your life doesn't listen/respect boundaries" in very practical ways. Sort of like No Cry Sleep Solution... it doesn't provide a single "this is what your family should look like" goal with specific steps to get there but instead says "if you don't like X, then try these half dozen ideas". So if the situation is "my mom does Y and I can't allow that anymore but I don't want to end contact" those books have lots of practical ideas for finding the balance that addresses the need for contact as well as the boundary being set.
DoK- sorry your doctor is giving you a hard time. Did the nurse say /why/ you had to come in today? Was it just that they wanted to see if it would clear on it's own and since it didn't you're now in a different "risk category" or something? Or was there some sort of CDC announcement that has them more cocnerned about a set of symptoms than before? When we brought Tor into the ER the on call dr at our family practice office wasn't all taht worried, but then I guess they started getting LOTS of reports from families and several of their 2-3yo patients ended up in the ER as well so suddenly they were all about having Tor checked out this week.
We got chicks! We have six more golden comets... DH was going to get a few different breeds but when he went yesterday the Comets were the only ones that looked really good. Right now the girls are living in a box in what will eventually be the girls' room and they should be ready to move to the coop with the "big kids" by Ro's birthday (first week of June). Hopefully they'll all make it!
to everyone! Sounds like just about everyone is having a tough time!
I admit this new format is STILL bugging me here on MDC. I just can't get used to it. I try to start posting and just give up. It's quite frustrating. Between that and all the financial and medical problems here, I just haven't been on much.
LionessMom- they think my ds also has EDS. We are waiting until September for the referral because of my horrible...just horrible nurse at our doctor's office. I'm glad you got a diagnosis and maybe this will clarify things for you some.
Wombatclay- I am right with you on Narnia. I read the first book to the kids through gritted teeth. Dh read all of them and said they are good (he's atheist) but hysterically obvious Evangelical propaganda. And YAY! for the little girl and healthy ovaries!
I'm taking notes on the read alouds! My kids love Rick Riordan and Pullman a lot. We all love Dahl, of course, too.
I'm feeling sooooo isolated right now. No pagans or anything nearby. Heck, finding anyone even open to non-Catholic and non-Fundamentalist religions is hard enough. You should see the looks we get when I mention I was raised Jewish. And then, of course, the questioning about which church I attend now that I've left those "Jewish" ways, even if I never said I did! *sigh*
YAY! I saw that on the FB page. That's awesome. What is meant by contract? Then what, after it expires? I didn't know authors had contracts.
Oh, I know you weren't! I was just clarifying that she doesn't. I will have to see if our library has them.
Aww Where are you located? It sounds weird to me to have Catholics and Evangelicals put in the same boat. I think of Catholic as an up-north religion, and Fundamentalist ones as southern. I'm so happy being "out" as Pagan, though-- it's so freeing. I don't give a good gosh-darn what people think about my religion. I'm not snobby at all-- on the contrary, I'm quite pollyanna-ish and so upbeat and happy, as a rule. Soccer-mom Pagan I don't wear all-black much anymore, though my goth roots are deep I don't have to look the part anymore. And I'm a baseball mom, really
That's so weird about the Narnia books. Seems either people see a very obvious Christian-propaganda series, or don't see it at all!
I'm starting to pack for DS's trip to the beach! Then I go to M's on Wednesday! I'm so, so, so excited!