Heyla and happy April! :)
I've decided there is just no way I can catch up with the March thread so... apologies all round, hugs and kisses too, and now that I'm back from a visit to Philly I will simply put my energy to staying active in the April thread! (more than about 5-10 minutes on the computer triggers vomiting and intense headaches so, um, until this absolutely brilliant pregnancy symptom goes away, I'm on rationed doses of shiny screen)
Lets see... Ro has moved into a complete disintegration phase with total meltsown and Tor has decided he enjoys talking BUT this means that when we don't understand him (or can't do what he wants) the tantrum/frustration is insane. He is covered in bruises where he smacks his head into things (like the guy on Sesame Street? The pianist guy?) when frustrated. I'm trying to stay upbeat and "cool/controlled mama" but dang, Ro pushes all the buttons with her whining/screaming/fussing/being mean to her sibs and then Tor will suddenly start in on things too and I just don't have the energy!
Looking forward to TMing... will go today to get supplies, but I've been saving magazines that have come in the mail (un-looked-at) since the budget is a bit tight for new magazines. I was hoping to score at the going-out-of-business Borders but the only magazines they had left were pretty bad. LOL But we can do some nice paper from Michaels and HUZZAH! (though today's energy has been pretty rough... we woke to a huge thunder storm after our looooong drive home, and Dh was late for work and the kids going nuts and I've got a sore throat and travel exhaustion). I'm ready to start thinking and planning and prepping.
And the weekend in Philly was fun. :) DD1 turns 6 tomorrow and she requested a visit to a museum and an IKEA. I have relatives in Philly so we stayed with them in this amazing house (my aunt is a costume designer and drama professor so the house is brim full of theatre stuff... and it's this gigantic, three story, colonial stone house that really lends itself to theatrical flair). The Please Touch museum was a bit of a let down, but the IKEA trip rocked (we got a "short" bunk bed for the girls, and an "egg chair" for dd1), and spending time with my fav relative rocked too. But it was long weekend, and I'm just worn out.
I'm not sure why but I'm having a lot of trouble trying to find my balance these days. There just seems to be so much that needs "me" and I just don't have enough "me" to go round. I don't know it it's that the kdis are in an especially challenging developmental moment, or the pregnancy, or the new job, or the let down of having to postpone most of the goals we were FINALLY working towards in a really positive way, or... well, all of it together. I want to be spending more time here and more time with the people that nurture/give me energy since that's what I need to get through this and yet those are the people.things that seem to get shoved to the side. I mean, right now Tor is biting my leg, Ro is screaming because Laia wont share her book, the sink has dishes in it, I need to plan the grocery trip (no food since we've been gone 4 days), and Tor just stopped biting and is instead throwing things off the counter. Argh.
Ok, time to go to the store.... we have no tea, no coffee, and with the ongoing thunder storm my head is clanging!
(oh, Maia... maybe a move would actually help your ds? I mean, maybe the positives of having that "fresh start" energy, and new therapists/doctors, would actually help? Since he's already in an unsettled mood and going through the med roulette again maybe it would actually be easier to focus on moving now and getting settled in the new place instead of trying to find stability and /then/ moving? I dunno though. Big hugs and hopes that the TM process throws up some ideas!)