Well, yesterday was my due date. It came and went and today I'm still pregnant. I'm actually doing ok with that. Yesterday morning I woke up and was bummed about the fact I was probably going to be overdue- felt like "well now that there's no "end date" I could be pregnant for infinity!" lol. Crazy right? But DH and I had a REALLLLY great day together celebrating our due date. We went to lunch and I ate the fajitas I've been craving for forever. Then we went to Hobby Lobby and got iron-on letters and decals and made onesies with the baby's names on them (one for a boy, one for a girl since we don't know). It was alot of fun and a day I will never forget. The perfect way to honor my due date without it being "all about me", making me feel self-indulgent and bummed that the baby wasn't there. It was just FUN. :-)
I figured I'd be suuuuuper bummed when I woke up this morning officially overdue, but surprisingly I've made my peace with it (for today at least. lol) and I'm just kind of like "ok, whatever" about it. Actually it almost feels like less pressure now that we don't have a due date in front of us. Totally the opposite of yesterday. It helps too that my mom called this morning and my Uncle (and Godfather) who lives in Montana and who we NEVER get to see because of distance is flying into town on a whim tonight and staying for a week!! I'm sooooooo excited!! He is awesome and I always feel so at peace when we visit with him. He has such a great attitude about life and it rubs off on everyone. Perfect for getting myself and our family ready for the birth :-) Plus his wife (my aunt) is a CNM out in Montana and has been keeping tabs on me all pregnancy so it's cool that he'll likely (hopefully?) be here when I deliver (not at the actual birth) and can take pictures and details back to my aunt! :-) I"m just really excited! Plus I am almost hoping I dont deliver until at least the weekend so that we get to spend several days with him before I get wrapped up in the baby. I want to take advantage of this time we get to visit with him. Obviously I won't be disappointed if the baby comes but it's really nice to have a reason to be happy to wait too! :-)
Oh and as for the "overdue" thing and our expectations.... I was TOTALLY prepared all pregnancy to go at least till my due date and be ok with it. Even overdue was fine with me. I went 12 days overdue with DD and DS was 5 weeks early and had to stay in the NICU for a week so I was certainly happy to not have a premie baby. Plus I was never ridiculously uncomfortable with DD so I literally have been totally fine with going to my due date or later this whole time... Then... the false labor started. haha. Seriously, it screws with your mind! That first time I thought "this is it" and got mentally prepared for it only to be let down hours later when things fizzled out just totally screwed up my mind. Then I thought "well it'll probably be sooner rather than later". HA! yea right, here I am "overdue" lol. If not for all the false alarms I've had over the last few weeks I'd be perfectly content. Physically I feel pretty good and I know the baby will come when ready. And after 2 csections with DD and DS and going for my HWBA2C this time I am MORE than content to let baby come when it's ready so I have the best chance of having the kind of birth I want.... but then the damn false labor starts and it all goes out the window. lol. I know many of you can relate. It's evil isn't it? pure torture! haha.
Well, gotta get back to work. Need to pay some bills "just in case" cuz I know I'll forget about them later. Then more cleaning before my uncle gets here. Good luck to those who are still waiting, congrats to those who've already had your babies, and peaceful vibes to those of us who are overdue! :-)