Back is "out" again. Back to meds until I can relax it enough to get it to click back. :/
Dh is leaving Tuesday. I have about 1/3 of the stuff sorted for shipping/packing, so I am not too worried. Stoopid back.
Hugs to everyone who needs them. I'm following all of you and sending good vibes.
I am sort of self involved these days, my apologies to my fellow dingoes. I have lost my running mojo a bit this week and only run once, which was a disaster. It's getting hot out and somehow all these goals I have are kind of floating around in my head but not translating into action. Maybe a little burnout. I am definitely burned out at work and this emotional stuff I've been dealing with is still an ongoing issue.
Plus next week is Passover and the prep for that is way intense.
So...this mama needs a run but isn't likely to be able to get myself out to get one. I don't know. Boo on me.
I'm overwhelmed right now in childcare issues for the week off from school, during which daycare is closed 2 days. My solution: invite my inlaws to come help. unfortunately they don't arrive until the end of the "problem" day. Fortunately I covered one of the three problem spots that day. A second I'm sure I can bring my kids and the third I just decided either I *am* bringing my kids or my husband has to be Johnny on the Spot. I haven't even begun to think about the last week of summer. Shudder.
I'm coming up for air after a couple really intense weeks. Busy family schedule and insane work. I think if my work was chill, I'd be able to handle it OK, but it hasn't been.
My practice is very busy, and has a tradition of great client care. We have a few young doctors who are really smart, and practice amazing medicine, but.....are not so into the client care. It's almost like they don't realize why we are there. What ends up happening is that they get bitchy to the support staff when they are approached with client phone calls, questions, requests, urgent care appointments, and it ends up going on my schedule. I am fine with that because I love that part of my job, but recently my surgical schedule has been full, and my regular appointments are fully booked too. This means I am getting home at midnight! Not so cool.
To top it all off. Some of the young docs have a really negative attitude toward our boss, an "Old timer" who has been in practice for many years, and maybe doesn't do things quite the same as the rest of us do. I don't think they realize how inappropriate and demoralizing it is for everyone to constantly have one team member berating another. I am not a confrontational person, and am not sure what to do about it. My girls up front in reception have my back in terms of trying not to overwhelm me, but the cases need to be seen and when the other doctors refuse, I'm not gonnna do that........
Also to top it off, I lost a lovely patient this week. He went into cardiac arrest after a routine procedure. The anesthesia and procedure were totally uneventful, and he recovered beautifully, but then he arrested. Amazingly, I was able to rescuscitate him. I even ended up having to to intracardiac epinephrine - pulp fiction style-and it was an amazing rush when that heart started up again, when he started breathing. Unfortunately, he had too much brain damage,and we ended up euthanizing him. It was so sad and his people were devastated. The whole time I gave his care my all, and to know that it wasn't enough, even my sheer will for him to recover, is really sad.
Blech, sorry to vent, but my work has been filling my head recently, but I don't have a plan yet for how to deal with some of the issues.
Sorry for all you guys not feeling well. That stinks :( Kerc, I hope you get your childcare straightened out. We had two nannies quit in 4 weeks of each other (One of them broke up with us via text lol) and it just about gave me a breakdown this spring. So stressful. I say bring them in. People NEED to understand we live in a multi and inter-generational world!
Nic- get your ass out there for a run Sister! Even if it is for 20', your mental health is so so so important, especially in the time surrounding holy celebrations!!!!!!!!!!! I'm cheering you on!
Jo, you are one of the calmest, coolest, most collected people ever. I bow down before you because you are amazing. Hope you feel better soon and it doesn't get in the way of all you need to get done.
Penelope, I have to say, while my kids having head lice totally sucked, and I would have rather spent those 8 hours a week that I was spending nitpicking in a different way, I did love the physical closeness that I had with the girls as I went through their heads hair by hair. Hope you get rid of those bugs soon!
I have managed to do most of my runs these past two weeks even with the crazy work schedule. I did switch up my long run order to put off my 18 miler until this week and I think it was a good decision. Also, I am on Day 30 (Woohoo!!!!) of Jillian Michael's 30 day shred. I did the whole thing, the 30 day menu, all the workouts and I can't wait to get my final stats this weekend. It is my birthday next week and I did this as a present to myself. I'm glad I did it. I learned a lot of great new recipes and am much stronger.
Have a great day Ladies, and stay healthy. ND I
Happy beated birthday, JayGee!
jo, fingers crossed for a quick recovery for your back.
kerc, geo, I'm in the same alternating panic and denial about summer childcare. My childcare provider is having a baby in late July/early August, and theoretically my husband is going to stay at home with occasional freelance work while we're childcare-less. I'm trying to arrange a co-op of alternating mornings with a couple of other families, because otherwise I'm sure to be scrambling for prep time...
ND, sorry about the stressful and crummy work environment, topped off by the stress of losing your patient. I'm awed by the fact that you've managed to run despite the insane days.
RR- Still not. 8 days since my last run that ached for days after. Boot camp was fine, though left my hip/groin a bit achy, and I've been keeping up with the yoga and hoping to be able to run again soon. I'm actually feeling a bit nervous about it, since I'll be very disappointed if my next run leaves me as sore as my last slow one did. My husband has been running almost daily and I'm feeling incredibly jealous every time he heads out.
NRR- Finished my last classes of the semester and just have exams and marking to put the insanity behind me. I'm almost ready to come up for air!! I'm doing lab skills testing tonight with only 5 hours sleep and back to back days of insane amounts of work, so we'll see how well I keep it together...
ND--I'm so sorry about your patient. I'm also sorry that the relationships at work are getting stressful and you're ending up picking up the slack. It is draining to work with people who are negative all the time.
Jo--I hope your back recovers quickly! It's amazing what you've managed to get accomplished since your move fell into place; I hope the rest of the process goes smoothly and your back is able to relax.
mommajb--Wow on your kids. My kids are little and don't show any particular signs of being gifted, so I don't have any advice at all, but I'm listening and offering support. I can't imagine how overwhelming it must be to be faced with evidence of your kids' extraordinary potential. How do you encourage your DS to acomplish what he is capable of while at the same time not push too hard? I don't know.
JayGee--Happy birthday, a bit late! Have you tried out the lacrosse sticks yet? When are you going to be in NH? I'm in Massachusetts, but will be vacationing and such this summer so I don't know if I'll be in town when you're in town. Oh, and it seems as though Alex was swallowed by her college work and sleepless toddler nights. I'm sure she'll be back when things smooth out a bit.
Who found it amusing that I signed up for the half-marathon? Yes, it is a particular type of psychological sickness that causes me to hate a twelve-mile run and then register for a half the next day. My thought process was that my twelve-mile run was kind of an accident. If I'm able to go out and run that distance on a random Monday with no training plan, I likely could run one more mile than that with some preparation. Theoretically. I don't have any plan at the moment, but I have until October to straighten things out.
No running today, since DS didn't have school. Hula hooped for twenty minutes this morning and raked leaves for an hour. Tomorrow I hope to drag myself out of bed earlyish and spend four hours hauling leaves to the dump before my kids have a birthday party to attend. The party is at the local Y pool, and I am hoping I can somehow avoid getting into the water. I haven't been in chlorine since January, and I'm reluctant to trigger another allergic reaction. It appears my body is just extra sensitive these days. In addition to reacting to chlorine, I've recently had allergic reactions to two different types of lip balm and also the band-aid the nurse put on when I donated blood last week. Crappy freaking-out skin.
Lalala ~ you'll do great in the 1/2. As you said, even though the accidental 12 miler sucked, with training and preparation, 13.1 will feel much more pleasant. Where are you in MA? We'll be in Portsmouth, NH from July 3-10. Would love to get together if it's not too far and you're in town!
MelW ~ have you done any hip or glute strengthening? A lot of my hip and groin pain went away when I started to work on my glutes and adductors. Best of luck with the end of the semester.
ND ~ just reading about your work situation and your poor patient made me stressed out. Great job on the 30 day shred! How many minutes a day is it? I could use something like that, for sure!
Nic ~ I'm pretty sure my mojo would make a speedy exit with the heat and humidity on the rise too. Glad your Passover preparations are going well. I had a strange dream last night that you hosted a Dingo Seder for us all!
Jo ~ stoopid back is right! Best of luck to you and your DH this weekend as you prepare for his departure.
I wasn't able to get to the Y for a run yesterday after all between DD2's gymnastics, the chiro, grocery shopping and then swimming lessons for both girls. Plus, DH took the entire family out for dinner last night for my birthday to one of those Japanese hibachi reastaurants where they cook your food right on the table. The kids were totally mesmerized by the whole show! This morning DS and DD are running their final mile of the Read and Run Marathon (read 26 books, run 25 miles) then I have Kettlebells at the Y followed by a short run.
I'm a bit behind as I've been in a combination funk/overwhelming crazy schedule blur. So, no personals, but know that over the last few days I've read all that was going on and thought of all of you.
Official half decision: this one, no. Probably not going to do the 10K either. I realized yesterday after an hour long spin class where it felt like my right leg was going to die and my left leg was fresh as a daisy that I've got to get this fixed. Talked to a friend/dd's ped, who pulled some strings and got me an appointment with a goddess of a pt. I find it funny that my referral is coming from the doctor that manages my daughter's asthma meds, but they (the doc and PT) are friends and trust each other's judgement. It got me an appointment with someone I would have had to wait months to see. In the meantime, the LR today is going to be replaced by a trip to the gym to commune with the elliptical and bike. Part of me is relieved at least for today, as the record setting rains continue and I just don't have it in me to go out and struggle that hard, dragging my leg like a dead piece of wood, in a 40 degree downpour.
I'm now obsessively searching CL for a road bike, but it seems that no one 5" tall sells their bikes. Seriously, short women? I know you are out there! If I don't have some kind of outdoor option for my exercise this spring (if we ever have one), I'll go nuts. The bike I have was an impulse buy at Costco and fits terribly, so I'm either going to sell it or keep it for Courtney, who should be taller than me in a year or so.
JG- tell me about your kettlebell class! I just purchased a 20lb KB and I've been doing swings so far. What a workout, just that one move! I am in love with Kettlebells! I can do a lot of work and my wrists don't hurt, and way more fun than free weights.
There is a russian swing KB class at a karate place here in town. I wish I had more time in the day, I would love to go!
RR- I am clear to run and was all ready yesterday morning, but woke up to 6 inches of snow. :( I already had my outfit picked out and everything. LOL I am ready to get back to it, so probably Monday or Tuesday I will be out seeing what I can do.
Today was actually my first class for Intro to Kettlebells. We learned a lot of the basics like how to hold the bell in different ways and how to do a few different moves (which I don't remember the names for, other than the swings). We did one thing a lot where you kind of flip the bell over so it is resting on your wrist and then doing squats. Lots of squats... and lunges.... As I learn more, I'll let you know!
Today was the last mile of the kids' Read and Run Marathon (over the last 4 months, they've each read the equivalent of 26 books and run 25 miles). They ran it by grade, in the 45 degree rain. Jacob did GREAT! I'm pretty sure he was the first 3rd grader across the finish line and he was definitely in the 8-9 minute range. Kay walked a bit more, but crossed the line with a huge smile. A great accomplishment for them both. Pics on Facebook, if anyone is interested.
That's the best race pic I've seen!
Gaye, I hear you re: leaving a (slightly) sick kid with the nanny, but he'll be at home and able to nap as needed.
Memiles, sorry about the race; good luck looking for the bike!
Around here, I've got a field trip w. students to my own church today and I'm reading and (I think?) ushering. I missed running yesterday in some gorgeous, perfect weather because dh had a thing 8-3 and so I stayed home and cleaned and grocery shopped and then couldn't quite get the mojo up to run. I do want to get out for a few miles this afternoon, though.
Any vegetarians among the Dingos? I'm trying to ease off on my usual fairly strict eating habits while I'm training (for a half, a half, and then a full) and I think it's a good idea. But I also have given up meat for Lent and think I'll continue in a vegetarian diet - it's healthier, better for the planet, etc. I'm just hungry all the time! So I need to do some research about meal ideas for vegetarian runners.
And off to get ready for church...
Great picture, Real! You look so happy!
Penelope ~ it sounds to me like you're not getting enough protein. I always feel famished, no matter how much I eat, when I'm low on protein. Are you still doing dairy? Cottage cheese has a ton of protein. How about eggs? Have a good morning on your church field trip!
memiles ~ I really hope you can find a bike. Check at your local bike store to see if they have any 2nd hand bikes available or access to other used bikes. I am 5'1" and ride a 44cm Cannondale.
RR ~ 6.1 painfully slow miles in brilliant spring sunshine. Note to self 2: Don't plan a long run the day after Kettlebells either .
Penelope, do you like beans and lentils? There are so many great high protein recipes out there. Also if you read the eat to live forum, there are some amazing green smoothie recipes, which make excellent lunches. I also like smoothies with vanilla protein powder mixed in, you get the sustained energy release from the protein, and your carbs and fiber from the fruit.
Rellim- that is an amazing race picture. You should buy a copy and keep it to look at for motivation! Awesome.
Gaye LOL about being bored and then being served up a doozy, I don't know why, but that is always how it works out for me.
LaLa - the duality of the long run and the races.......there are the two sides of distance running right there. You have to go through the hell and then on race day it is so amazing. Sometimes that is the only thing that keeps me going in the deep pit of the middle of a long run.
Megan, good luck with the PT. I gave myself over a couple years ago and it saved my stride.
JayGee, I did Jillian's menu for 30 days, and I did her 20 minute strength circuit 5 days a week alongside my running. It really wasn't that bad. The recipes were (surprisingly) delicious and easy to cook. I am intrigued by the kettleball, thinking I might have to try it - feeling like I need to mix things up a bit in my strength training.
I was late getting out on my 18 miler yesterday. It snowed and hailed all morning while I was at work so that was totally unmotivating. I worked with the Doctor I was complaining about and not surprisingly, she wanted to refer all of our urgent care cases that called to the Emergency hospital. Seriously, you want to send our clients away when they need us most, and we are open all morning? Well duh. So I had a bit of a full caseload and worked a couple hours longer than scheduled.
My LR was cold and lonely. I did an out and back on a rails to trails and it was mentally THE WORST!!!!! I did see some cool animals: Sandhill cranes, tons of other birds, a Jackass hanging out in a pasture, but the wind really got me down. I was trying to imagine Reb and Jo running along with me. I was so happy when I was done. Then on the way home I swung by the clinic and found one of my patients had pulled out his IV line and was a big bloody mess. Goofball. Spent another good chunk of time getting him squared away before I got to finally go home.
Phew, so glad I get to chill today....... Taking the day off and going shopping for my birthday which is coming up. OH YEAH!!!! Have a great day, good runs to all. Love, ND
Real - Awesome race picture!
ND - Sometimes I feel more accomplishment for making it through a long run when it is mentally tough. Great job on yours! I'm sorry work has been so hard. That must be so tough to have to manage office politics with medicine.
I had a great spin class today, followed by a short and slow run (I was running with a friend). We only did about a mile, but it was nice to have even a small brick workout. I'm looking forward to more bricks after the mini!