Bec, everyone here has already said more than everything I have to say, but that won't keep me from adding my emphasis. First, everything sparkletruck said. Sometimes you have to somehow find enough stillness to really hear what your body and mind are telling you, and that may require a day in bed. And you may have to beg, borrow or steal to get it, but the insights will help you know better what you need. And it's not "something is wrong," necessarily, so much as "I need." What is it you need? It's OK to need something, and as the person who works to meet everyone's needs all the time, we have that special way of ignoring our own. My mind tends to verbalize through my body--I don't get sadness or rage so much as physical pains. But I know exactly those sighs you describe; I observe them in myself when I am emotionally fatigued.
And a note on the whole "other people have real stuff going on" talk: First, we are all deeply invested (emotionally, physically, financially, spiritually) in our families. There is no comparison. We all do this in huge and amazing ways. Second, I would never want anyone to consider my life any sort of benchmark for what is validly "full enough" or "busy enough." Part of the reason why I am willing to pack it all up and move 10 time zones away is my fatigue. I get to do some things that focus on me, me, me. I'm a vagabond at heart and have been tied to home for 10 years and my soul is hurting. Thankfully, dh understands that (because he has a twin heart) and so here we go. But, back to my first point--can you get some quiet, alone, reflective time to figure out what needs are not being met?
Gaye, hoping for good news for you!
Nick, good luck! Never again Imodium, right?
RR: The sun is due to be out today, and I have a strategy. I am going to dress for the Y, leave the house as soon as the kids are on the bus, work out, then head out into the SUNSHINE and WARM TEMPS and just walk or jog or maybe get a coffee at a cafe I like. This should net me several hours of sunshine.
NRR: Then I am going to Friday prayers. After that, a friend always stops in with her kids for coffee after my kids get home from school and they all play. Then, my kids and I will head to a dear friend's house for dinner and more playing. Tomorrow, I am (finally!) fixing a broken windshield wiper (yes it has been raining all week) on my car, and then going to my G-ma's 85th bday party. Sunday, an acquaintance is coming to basically buy out the rest of our personal effects. Come Monday, this house will be like a cave.
And in other news, ds and I finally made major strides in his school work, and he handed in a persuasive report, a short page on simple machines, and a thank-you letter (to his teacher). Next up, an open-book essay exam on WI history (I make the questions). We have just a couple more math concepts to go over, and I already got him a math workbook for daily practice this summer. Makes me think I *could* do the homeschooling if I have to. That said, I have asked dh to call and be a little aggressive with the school and see if we can't get our kids enrolled.
P.S. sparkletruck, you sound healthy! How are you?
ETA: LaX4, omg I hate hate hate Pokemon, and no, that is not too strong a word. You are a better woman than I.