Bobcat-- I definitely understand where you are coming from, but also I have been in this long distance relationship for 5 years now, there were tons of things that we couldn't go through together physically (And very important things..deaths, birthdays, holidays etc) but we definitely have unconditional love for one another and learned how to deal with it and connect on a deeper level besides just physically. Otherwise we would not have made it this far! :) The distance used to be hard for both of us, but we have gotten past that. (Dont get me wrong, just like you said you would be missing HIM, that will still be the case, but we have become SO strong with everything that we have gone through, mainly.. the being apart aspect. I will miss him for sure, but I have completely gotten used to being away from him as well. What gets us through is knowing that one day we will be together for good. We talk every single day, just as much, or more than normal couples who live together. We have an insanely strong base, all due to being strong enough to be in SUCH a long distance relationship for so long. The statement about having him send me his sperm was COMPLETELY a joke lol :) It was more so said to just make fun of myself and how obsessed I am with getting pregnant, just like many of us on this site.
But also, I dont think I mentioned this before, but it will probably clear up a lot for you as far as him being able to be a part of the pregnancy as well.. If I do end up pregnant, my fiance also already committed to coming here until the Fiance Application goes through if we both think that is best. He would be allowed to be here for 6 months on a Visitors Visa while the other one is in progress.. and the Fiance Visa will not take more than another 6 months. So there would be no gap in him being here during my pregnancy!! (if that is even what we decided to do) The only reason he is not staying here in the US until the app goes through at this point is because it will be his last 6 months in England before moving here for good. (Besides going back to visit etc) So if I do end up pregnant, there will be no issues with him coming here to be a part of the pregnancy :) BUT, if I do end up preg and we decide he should stay in England, I know we will be just fine. Technology works wonders these days, we have managed for the past 5 years :) Also, he would be here for the last 3 months of the pregnancy.. and the birth. I have a friend who is pregnant at the moment and her husband will be deployed for all of her pregnancy, including the birth. But he made the decision to go into the ARMY knowing this could one day happen, and they made the decision to get pregnant at the time of his deployment. This day in age, it doesn't always work out that a couple will be together for all of a pregnancy, all depends on how you look at it I suppose :) If we felt it was neccessary for him to be here during my pregnancy, by all means, we would make it possible.
Thank you for your advice to stay busy! There is a lot I am doing at the moment, including a lot of shopping for healthier foods (JUST in case) Looking into different baby names, decluttering is definitely something I will attempt to do as well! (Though I have a problem with getting rid of things sometimes! LOL! I already used to work out a decent amount, but I am also making it mandatory every day, I also want a very healthy place for a baby to grow! Thanks for the advice, and I hope this "waiting" time flies as well!! Good luck to you in your future of TTC!!!