Elonwy I love the idea about the vitamin B for the stress. Thank you.
I really do have a lot on my plate huh? I was so miserable at school today! By my second class my feet had swelled up so bad I had to remove my shoes!! Man the pubic bone really acted up to where it hurt to lift my legs into the crazy seats in the drawing studio. My feet would swell too bad to stand. Unfortunately I am working on a huge piece guessing 3 by 5 feet so its a little uncomfortable! I just need to finish up a self portrait and the big major drawing and I ma done with that class. For 3d I need to finish up 2 soap stone carvings which are pure therapy and pour a couple of more of my molds I have already made. There is supposed to be one more project. A rope piece done by the whole class collectively. I am going to ask my professor if I can make a powerpoint about the art work of Burning Man instead. He keeps downing the festival but has no idea it originated as an art festival. I am so in love with the sculpture Bliss from last years burn!! I would be sad to miss my art history lecture. So what I'm saying is I think my schooling is going to be a lot less stressful from here on out. But if I didn't "have" to go it would be way better. I would still get my work done. I just need to get the balls to talk to all my professors about being absent but still woking! It is painful treking around campus to say the least!! Wow rant!
I actually got a good part of the house cleaned today. My son has made friends with other kids in the building. They all play out on the playground together looking out for one another. I wanted the kids to hang out here if they were bringing it inside so I had no choice but to get the main rooms cleaned up. I even got around to making some cleaner. Ahhhhh so refreshing. Peppermint Dr Bonners with rose oil. It was is delic!! and now I don't have to worry about us catching a disease from the horribly dirty bathroom!! Now to just finish my room! and the baby list!
I forget who commented about the stress relief if just scheduling the c-section and being done with it. I am def more resolved to the situation. I don't know how long this outbreak will last its very new to me. I'm going to try the mushroom remedy recommended here. I have way upped the l-lysine and went from 1 a day valtrex to 2 a day. I also started on some GFS extract. I'm really excited about my 37 week appt tomorrow. If there is any indication that the outbreak could be lingering with out us/me knowing it I will go with the c-section for sure. I don't want to risk anything for my the baby. Your talking death to blindness.... not cool. I'm going to check out some c-section stuff here and talk about it with the midwife. I am clueless. I imagine it is a pretty crazy experience for the little one. Thats what makes me the most uncomfortable about the idea. So lame too I am worried about what I will tell people as to why the c-section.... Just pretend I didn't hear their question and redirect their attention with OH MY GOD LOOK HOW BEAUTIFUL SHE IS!!!
I am def more resolved with the ex ds situation too. Kind of excited. On a more selfish note if we leave the state and he can't, my contact with my abusive ex will be so much less!! Which will ultimately be good for my kids too! I am selfishly grateful he has fucked up so bad and I can take my kids and live in true peace. Gosh does this sound horrible or what!!?? After thinking on it more etc it's like shackles have been removed from me and I can really move forward! Feels really good.
Ladies thanks so much for everything. For sharing your stories with me and supporting me in mine. I am truly grateful.
My post are so up and down maybe I need more than some Vit B!!! I think no longer hosting would really help too!!