i keep butting heads or running away from female bullies in my life. i still havent figured it out.
queen bee moms in homeschooling groups.
my estranged bully sister who is charasmatic and charming and evil and manipulative who spreads rumours about me and wont 'let' the rest of my fam be around me. i really miss being able to be around my other sisters and nieces and nephews. family holidays are always hosted by my bully sister. she always extends an invitation to me thru my mom. when i refuse it makes me look like the bad guy. my family blames me for this rift. and i suppose it is because of me. because i cant figure out any other way to keep from being hurt except to stay away.
the social exclusion is wearing me down. to avoid these mean women i have become such a hermit. i am not charismatic. people dont seek me out.
when i was younger most (all?) of my friends were guys. now all of my social circles are women and theres at least one 'mean woman' in each circle.
my husband tells me to just go anyways. to avoid interacting with the queen. to hang out with the quieter women/the nicer women. it is soooo hard for me to be at ease around someone who has been a bully to me. and there seems to be something about me that makes me a target.
i dont know if im ever going to find a solution to this.
im so sad about it.