i'm almost 30. i have 3 kids 10 and under. parenting 2 and 3 kids did not turn out at all as i expected.
with my first i was so excited to be a mother, would do anything for my child, really wore the stay at home mom badge proudly and was good at it! it was good work, and i wanted more kids to just come as they may.
but then the next two were back to back and i experienced post-partum depression after both, followed by a few really tough years of confusion and feeling so overwhelmed, isolated, underused but overused at the same time. i felt very imprisoned and prepared myself to get a job, and possibly go back to school, the second they were all in school.
so now, they're all in school! the house stays cleaner! the kids got sick a lot this winter and it was important that i was here. (jobs available to me wouldn't be very flexible for sick days.) i love having the time to myself which is something i have negative balance of. i could go back to school or get a job fairly easy now.
i know i HAVE to do something at some point to increase my career potential, it's just necessary over here. but i don't know when exactly and i think what will end up happening is that it will be a last minute thing like it kind of always is with me. roll eyes
so i sit in this boring limbo. i'm here and i'm enjoying some peace and doing some extra things that i really enjoy but feeling pretty lazy and scared of changing things. i feel like i should go after some passion and excitement to improve myself and my parenting skills but i'm afraid of the change of pace it will take to get there.
talk about a first world problem
can you relate?