I want another baby.
Ds is about 14 months.
I think I want kids to be 2 years apart
My plan is to get pregnant this summer
every time I seriously think about getting pregnant, I feel tense, nervous, my heart beats a little faster, and I have a slightly shorter fuse.
Dh brought up the topic today and all those feelings came rushing back again. Thinking about the 10 straight weeks of nausea, random vomiting, back pain, being uncomfortable huge (short torso, long baby, & I carry all out in front), having a toddler to take care of this time, scary preterm contractions that required hospitalization, 36 hours of back labor, 2 hours of pushing, tearing, barely being able to walk for a couple weeks, crazy sleepless newborn care, postpartum depression.....
I sure sound negative. There is a TON of positive that I can focus on instead. ...and I know my experience is not as bad as it gets.
How do you get past all of the this, chill out, and do it all over again, on purpose?