As some of you may have already read elsewhere, I am really struggling with this pregnancy emotionally. To recap... this was a huge shock. We weren't sure we wanted 3 kids, we'd been discussing a vasectomy, I didn't think I was fertile again yet, my youngest is only 15 months (he's nursing, night waking, still in diapers, and co-sleeping), we're moving to a new state in a few months, etc. Because of all these things, I have yet to be happy about the pregnancy. My nausea, fatigue, bloating, gas, and extremely painful nipples are compounding my ill feelings about the pregnancy. Everything is harder to deal with when you're not excited about the reason you're feeling so awful. And at 7 weeks I've got a loooong way to go.
But the reality is, I am pregnant. We are going to have another baby. So it would make my life a lot easier if I could just get happy about it. But how do I do that? Has anyone else been through this emotional journey while pregnant? Is there anything that helps the process move along faster?
I've been talking with my friends who are pregnant with their 3rd babies and my friends that have more than 2 kids to try and feed off their enthusiasm. I talk with my husband about my feelings and he's great. He's very calm, supportive, and happy about the whole thing. But it's not rubbing off on me. Every time I am woken up at night by ds who wants to nurse or every time I'm panting over the kitchen sink while trying to make my kids lunch, I just want to cry.
If I read this post from someone else, I would think, talk to your care provider, get an u/s, talk to a therapist. Well, I don't have a care provider yet b/c we're moving so soon. It doesn't seem worth the effort to go in for all the measurements, blood tests, etc. when I'm only 7 weeks along and I'll just need to do it all over again when we settle into our new home. I believe in limiting u/s and was hoping to avoid them all together this pregnancy. And as for a therapist, well, that doesn't feel right to me.
The only thing that has been keeping me from dwelling completely has been relaxing on my couch and surfing the internet (hence my myriad posts here on MDC! LOL!) So... any other ideas or words of wisdom?