I live in Miles City, Montana. I have called every midwife within 4 hours of me(I think), and no one can/will travel to my house for a birth. My best option for a midwife is driving 2 hours to a birthing center/suite in Billings. I can go there before I am in labor, and stay afterwards. But, my DD will be 21 months old when the new baby arrives, and traveling 2 hours with her while I may or may not be in labor, and then 2 hours back with her and a newborn would be challenging, and I am unsure if this is something I can do.
My other option is the hospital that is 2 minutes from my home. That is where DD was born, and I swore I would never return. I was pushed around and pressured by the nurses, restricted from doing what I wanted to do, I was treated coldly and of course I did not know anyone who was taking care of me until the Dr came for the last 5 minutes of pushing. Does anyone have any ideas or suggestions for me? I am not confidant enough to try an unassisted birth I dont think, but if you have some really good books, videos, etc in mind that you feel would prepare me adequatly for this task I may consider it. Thanks everyone!