I have a son who just turned 2 and a daughter who is 4 months old. I was warned having two under two would be tough, but I had no idea just how draining it would be. I'm exhausted. I cry pretty much every day. I have a hard time dealing with the baby crying and sometimes yell at my toddler just because I'm frustrated. This isn't the type of parent I was before my daughter was born. I used to be so patient and tolerant and now I just have no energy and feel completely depleted.
I have a history of depression, so I'm extra nervous that I'm falling back into a bad place. But I also know having two young kids is tough and it's normal to feel stressed and it's only been a few months so I'm still in a transition phase of getting used to having two kids instead of one. But I'm just so upset so much of the time. Is that normal? I just don't want to suddenly realize a year down the road that I'm actually suffering from PPD or something serious that I need to get help for. I know it will get easier as the baby gets older and we figure more stuff out, but right now, it is so hard. I am miserable and day dream about going back to work just because I know working 8-9 hour days would be easier than dealing with kids 24/7. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. It wouldn't be so bad if my daughter could nap well, but she tends to need to be held for naps and I can't hold her for naps when I've got an active toddler up and about. It's such a struggle to balance both of the kid's needs.
Maybe I just needed to vent. Thanks for reading.